Out Of One Brutal Chemo, Straight Into Another

24 January 2024 18.16

Always chuckle when chemo finished and I get unhooked and I’m already in starting position ready to run out of there . They drag me back And give me the warning of doxorubicin , when you’ve had a wee put lid down and flush twice , don’t have sex cos he’ll end up in hospital with chemical burns , if you piss yourself clean up fast to save your flaps ( well They use diff terminology ) and drink as much as u can to flush it through without peeing yourself. Makes me chuckle everytime 😂😂

Home now , chill out in the bath and shave my one leg that chemo seems to of forgotten 😂🙈😩

24 January 2024 20.21

Tonight I’m a canton meal for 1 😂😂 shouldn’t be eating prawns but I’m eating prawns . What’s worst they do give me 💩 and counteract the steroids that stop you 💩 for a week

24 January 2024 21.00

Weird how this pops up today , 7 years ago Jacob complaining of pain and reckons his eyebrows dropped off in his sleep , weirdly Mine have this week 😂😂

25 January 2024 09.21

At my first oncologist appointment it was said that if I lost more of 10% of my body weight whilst on the brutal mix they’d have to stop the chemo , I became self determined no matter how sick I felt I’d eat and eat whatever I fancied , over 5 kg I’ve put on which dr hook said is unheard of , that’s what determination does 💪🏻💪🏻 pressure off now it’s over , laid in bed last night and felt sick and uncomfortable and thought right Kirstin let’s start back eating better and healthier from tomorrow . Dish of choice porridge at 6 am this morning , fish pie planned for tea but now pacing the house raging cos at 8 am I found myself at my fave farm shop and the only pork pie I love hasn’t even been baked yet , fuming and got right monk on now , hello billy big bollox hulk 🙈🙈

26 January 2024 11.47

Sometimes you just need the same drink in different scenery , don’t half miss my time down allotment , isn’t just a place to grow it’s a community 💕

27 January 2024 11.36

Best get these Bambi legs into action and walking in a straight line to try make some breakfast. Hungry , tired, moody and sick but today’s temporary and for good reason , tommorrow will be better .

27 January 2024 13.59

6 rounds in and my eyebrows have fallen into my cuppa 😂😂 just the right leg to go 🙈🙈😂😂😂

27 January 2024 17.22

Absolutely love love love how supportive everyone has been of my waistline 🙈 scones , clotted cream and jam delivered yesterday , a very well thought out gift from some fab mums I met through samuels afc journey and have been amazing support and the just eat voucher is just perfect and then Jacobs had a toddle up to Asda to get some salad stuff which is a rarity in the fridge these days and returned home with chocolates for me , really am blessed as well as fat 🙈😂😂 The biggest battles are always better when surrounded by an awesome bunch . Last day of steroids today thank god , thankfully not throttled anyone today but got to admit been tempted 🤪😩

28 January 2024 05.31

Well hello Sunday , mega early night last night . Wide awake at 4 feeling loads better 💪🏻 call the midwife and square crumpets kinda morning , have a fantastic day everyone 💕

29 January 2024 13.11

Whilst everyone posting there end of January weight loss pics which I love and well done to you all , I thought I’d mix it up and show my gain 🙈🙈😂😂 chemo 1 pic vs chemo 6 pic 🐷 gained a few extra chins along the way but you know what I couldn’t give 2 hoots ✌🏻✌🏻✌🏻

30 January 2024 09.54

Waking up and my first thought being a massive chicken salad 😩😩 what an absolute let down 🙈😂

30 January 2024 16.20

You know what , to raise a son that can think of others amongst his own struggles means we’ve raised an absolute diamond 💎 love the flowers Jacob but love you even more 💕

31 January 2024 06.35

Jeez it’s freezing this morning , roll on the summer and waking to the sun beaming through the windows

Kirstin is feeling blessed.

31 January 2024 18.01

Feel Like I’ve won lottery today 💕 a day of just doing normal Things , a mental calm washed over me this past few days and not even Costco cafe not having hotdogs could change the mood 🙈 one of my favourite meals keema and peas that I’ve not cooked for ages hoping it helps kick the tastes back into action

1 February 2024 09.55

Day 2 of trying to be healthier , let dogs pick the route , they took me all the way to Greggs 😂😂 god i love these dogs 💕🙈😂

Kirstin is with Joseph Love.

1 February 2024 10.34

Was hoping for a nice picture but I don’t have any 😂😂 so I’ll reuse one of my favourites. Today is a milestone , driving test passed 💕 lets hope now the motorbike is made redundant and he embraces the safety of 4 wheels . Well done Joseph

Kirstin is with Ann Cullen

1 February 2024

Day 2 😂😂 follow me for great weight loss and willpower tips 😂🙈😩✌🏻

1 February 2024 21.14

Fresh clean bedding , starfishing , and no background noise . What more could a girl want , night all 💕

3 February 2024 09.31

Getting on my own nerves today, roll on 5 pm to get the ct scan done , can’t change the results but can pray that what I’ve put my body and brain through has been worth it , pray for stability or shrinkage . Be an anxious 2 weeks wait for results of both that and heart scan I had this week

Kirstin is with Tony Love at Cannon Hall Farm.

3 February 2024 12.00 ( Visit to an animal farm)

Ain’t been here since before covid , nice change of scenery , I’ve got past the seeing cute little animals though my belly is telling me what I’m seeing which is crispy bacon sandwich and a nice leg of lamb tommorrow 🙈💕💕

4 February 2024 09.38

Most see white feathers and think it’s a sign from a loved one in heaven , all I can see is a dog that’s had an argument with a cushion 🙈😂😂

6 February 2024 11.31

Jeez think I need to get home and check my temperature to see that I’m Actually ok 🙈 walked past McDonald’s and kfc to get a subway salad 😂😂

6 February 2024 19.26

Absolutely smashing online parents evening for jacob, put me in a fantastic mood till one of teachers called me dad 😂😂😂 should of put the wig on 🙈🙈✌🏻

7 February 2024 09.40

Feel blessed other than extreme tiredness feel like I’ve bounced through round 6 with little side effects , don’t understand the hair loss malarkey though , still got a hairy right leg , eyelashes have fallen off this week but my hair on my head has pushed through and it’s like a fresh new lawn growing 🤪 they did say it would take 3 months from last round of doxorubicin Red Devil To start sprouting so god knows what’s happening 💁🏼‍♀️ hope the grey hairs don’t grow back

7 February 2024 12.18

That’s me set up and ready for a snow day tomorrow , if weatherman wrong I’ll get right monk on 🙈

Tony Love is with Kirstin.

7 February 2024 ( I made the decision its time to stop the traveling)

Came home from work all excited of the prospect of a job change meaning I’ll be home every night, kirstins reaction FML RIP our marriage 😃 😀

7 February 2024 19.17

Fancied this since I woke up , jelly, peaches and evaporated milk , takes me back to Sunday dinner pudding at my nans 💕

9 February 2024 18.47

Well wasn’t expecting to get my results over the phone today but pleased I have , heart scan is clear and no damage caused by the brutal mix I did 💕, ct scan shows no new growth or spread and stability continues . The diagnosis of leiomyosarcoma was always gonna be a tough one because of how fast spreading and aggressive it is. There’s never gonna be a bell rung but hopefully while ever treatment halts the growth and stops the spread they’ll be many more years to enjoy 💪🏻 thank you everyone that’s continually cheered me on and given support it really does mean a lot 💕💕

Life definately isn’t a dress rehearsal , enjoy it , embrace it , tommorrow is never guaranteed live for today ❤️

10 February 2024 08.39

Best get my rather large arse into gear , jump in the bath shave my right leg and kick off the half term , so need a week off alarms struggled this past week and hit snooze more times than I can remember , have a cracking weekend everyone

Kirstin is with Ann Cullen.

10 February 2024 13.34

Cant beat some fresh sea air

Kirstin is with Ann Cullen at Premier Inn Scarborough.

11 February 2024 08.59

Did someone say all you can eat breakfast !! 🤪🤪. Always nice to have a change of scenery 💕

Kirstin is with Ann Cullen and Indiya Rose at Heathfield Farm.

12 February 2024 15.41

Why did I pick this Monday to be good 😂😂

Kirstin is with Tony Love.

13 February 2024 21.27

Early post cos I’ll Of forgotten tomoz 🙈🙈 happy Valentine’s Day Tony , definately will Be the years where our vows will Be tested and you never know which Kirstin your coming home too 😂😂 but it definately makes every day different , ps back on the hamster wheel tomoz so you’ll be home from Ireland to billy big bollox hulk

😩😩 I don’t want flowers a cream bun would be better received , love you always 💕💕

14 February 2024 17.18

Back on the hamster wheel. Only prick and fluids I’ll be getting this valentines 😂😂😂 chemo number 7 in the bag , hoping it will be easier to manage now I’ve completed doxorubicon aka Red Devil , 5 weeks off now to give my body a break then we carry on , whilst ever it’s creating stability we run on the wheel . Long may it continue 💕

14 February 2024 20.18 (Takeaway box meal and a T light in the middle)

Romantic candle lit dinner 😂😂😂😂

15 February 2024 07.30

Well after 3 hours sleep I ain’t gonna be in the best mood day 😩😩 had to be up early for delivery of new fridge freezer . Old one only 22 mths old , air had stop circulating up to top shelf and as a family of 5 couldn’t afford to be a shelf down . Only had a years warranty with it , but nicely started to currys 🙈 under sale of goods act wasn’t fit for purpose and life expectancy of a fridge freezer is 6 years not 22 mths , had to pay them £149 for them to send an engineer which if manufacturing fault I would get it reimbursed , engineer wrote it off as faulty, £149 reimbursed and £325 reimbursed by currys which is a percentage of what we paid for it to account for the time we’d had it , fight for your rights people. Steroids ramble over 🤪🤪 peace out ✌🏻

15 February 2024 15.34

Todays steroids “

Don’t talk to me if you expect me to listen “

16 February 2024 09.51

Grey hair don’t care 🙈 nearly as hairy as my right leg , new chemo says could cause thinning, had hoped would be my waistline but means the hair 😂😂

16 February 2024 11.55

Steady and gentle start ready for the year ahead , bit at a time . Plenty to do after months of neglect but will give it my best shot .

16 February 2024 18.01

Busy bee in the kitchen today , lovely roast beef dinner , and my resolve to not buy any cakes still In place I made them instead 🙈🙈😂😂

18 February 2024 18.16

Been nice to see this past month Jacob Taking an interest in cooking , tonight’s delights pepperoni pasta and nachos 😋😋😋

Kirstin was eating dinner with Joanne Louisa at New Eastern Court Restaurant.

19 February 2024 13.45

Celebrating last weeks 3 lb weight loss 🙈🙈😂😂

23 February 2024 18.16

Thank fook it’s Friday , ain’t gonna lie struggled to get outta bed every morning this week and hit snooze way too many times despite being in bed by 9 pm , bet you any money I’ll be bouncing outta bed early this weekend . Tony off on his travels to Singapore tommorrow, and I’m Gonna carry on with our never ending clearout / cleanup , have a fab weekend everyone 💕

Kirstin was watching Breathtaking.

23 February 2024 20.39

Said it at the time and many times since . NHS heroes , what they put themselves through , witnessed and all while doing it put themselves at such risk . For many the impact will last a lifetime 💕

1 March 2024 08.22

Thank fook it’s Friday , never known tiredness like I’ve had this week, by 2 pm struggling to stay awake , Tony’s on his way back from Singapore home soon , looking forward to a weekend of nothing

3 March 2024 18.13

Jacobs Cookery skills coming on a treat , tonight’s delight stew and dumplings .

3 March 2024 19.25

Cadbury’s cream eggs wrapped in cookie dough froze for 3 hours then oven baked for 10 mins., sickly as ought but oh my days 💕

4 March 2024 13.45

Was a weird week last week. So many emotions for others not myself. Too many on a shit old path one that I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy . For some good times will come again for others life will never be the same , sending love and light to you 💕

Kirstin is at Jungle Park Pickalbatros Hotel, Hurghada, Egypt.

6 March 2024 05.32

Hurghada, Egypt

Fit to fly ✔️

Travel insurance ✔️

Beach body ✖️🙈

Should be chemo day but on a 5 week break to let my body rest and recover , rather rest on a sunlounger than a sofa 👍🏻 I need this , we all need this . Have to seize every opportunity and enjoy every moment . Life definately is too short to waste , morning cuppa in the sun can’t beat it 💕

6 March 2024 08.34

Right leg shaved holiday mode activated ❤️❤️ so looking forward to a week of normal Well Whatever normal is with the crew 🙈😂

6 March 2024 11.49 (Kirstin on a water slide)

Fatter you are faster you go 🙈🙈 I was like a fooking bullet 😂😂

7 March 2024 09.01

Honestly FML 🙈🙈 so brown hair goes blonde in sun , one day in my sun and my grey has turned white , look like a fooking skunk 🦨 😂😂😂

7 March 2024 11.01

You know us women sit n think oooh does this bikini Make my bum look too big , I’m Sure some of the German men must look in mirror and think jeeeez now that makes it look like the cock with no end to be seen when they choose there speedos 🙈🙈 jeeez right sweat and twitch on here 😂😂😂

8 March 2024 08.10

Kirstin your too old , unfit and fat to think you can spend the evening busting the moves out on the dance floor 🙈🙈 today will be spent letting the hips and knees recover 😂😂

Kirstin is with Joseph Love and 3 others at Paradise Island Hurghada Egypt.

9 March 2024 17.29

Lovely boat and beach day today , amazing to see what lives around the coral we’ve seen nemo and dory 🐟

10 March 2024 14.01

Ffs why didn’t anyone tell me my left arm pit hair had started growing back . Laid on lounger arms above me head looking like a fooking German 😂🙈

10 March 2024 17.20

To the one that remembered thank you. Feel so much guilt at the hard times ive taken you into , you’ve fast had to realise how cruel the world can be, really do hope that throughout life you continue to be the sweet understanding lad who will always gives more than he takes , we broke the mould with you Jacob blu and I’m forever grateful to have you by my side ❤️

Tony Love is with Kirstin.

10 March 2024 17.37

To my awsome wife on mother’s day, the glue that binds us all together and simply my best friend and gorgeous wife. So pleased your still with us and amazed every day the fight, the smile and the will to keep going. Love you and your always on my camera roll Kirstin Cullen

kirstin is with Tony Love.

11 March 2024 12.47

Chilling , letting the body rest and recover 😜😜

Life isn’t a dress rehearsal , enjoy it

12 March 2024 12.23 (Jo upto his usual antics)

When you try get a nice picture 😂don’t ever change joe

Kirstin is with Tony Love.

12 March 2024 13.45 (my badly suntanned leg, line where shorts were)

Always one 😂😂 drumstick squashies tan 🙈

Kirstin is with Joseph Love and 2 others

12 March 2024 18.15 (Joe and Jess head back to UK)

Waved the love birds off tonight safe journey home Joseph and Jess . 3 years together 💕 loved every minute of spending time with them both ❤️

Kirstin is feeling in love with Tony Love.

12 March 2024 18.55

When your wedding song comes on and you can’t help but lead “ force “ your hubby onto the dance floor . Our marriage shouldn’t be on the path it’s on , in sickness and in health , sickness should never of been part of it 💔 can’t help The path we are on , just got to make the most of every moment , yesterdays are guaranteed tomorrows are a blessing 💕

14 March 2024 06.40

Home at 3.45 am after a fantastic 9 days in the sun ☀️ today gonna consist of far too much washing and ironing and a supermarket shop , zero sleep , roll on bedtime

Kirstin Cullen is with Tony Love.

14 March 2024 09.51

Tony over the moon to be home and in his favourite shop 🙈 he’s all Stocked up on cartwheels , did want asda but when he volunteered to come thought there’s no fun in asda 😂😂

15 March 2024 18.06

Breakfast for tea 👌😋 definately hit the spot

Kirstin is with Tony Love.

16 March 2024 09.34

😂😂 bought a new bedroom toy this morning off Amazon this morning gonna have some right fun with it. Anti snore device for tony to wear , noise activated and gives a mini electric shock when it picks up snoring noise , great thing is my snoring will also activate it. He’ll be fried by the morning 😂😂😂😂🙈👌 I’m gonna make sure I sleep on my back for the foreseeable ✔️👍🏻😂

17 March 2024 18.58

Excited for bedtime 😂😂

Kirstin is with Tony Love.

18 March 2024 07.18

Never known so many noises in our bedroom 🙈🙈 at one point didn’t think I’d be able to sleep for laughing , he snored he got zapped , I snored he got zapped , I coughed he got zapped , I laughed he got zapped . Looking tired this morning mr love 😂😂😂 best £11 ever spent

18 March 2024 13.35 (John is my mums second husband)

Jeeez know I’ve aged alot this last 6 mths but being asked am I johns wife on todays visit 😂😂😂

18 March 2024 15.01

Whennyou shout at people when they put feet on table but dog sunbathing on it is acceptable ❤️🐶🙈

20 March 2024 14.20

6 months on from finding out I had the rare aggressive cancer leiomyosarcoma, sadly by time it was diagnosed it had already spread from the 7 cm tumour that had grown from my ovarian vein and had spread covering my liver . Inoperable , incurable isn’t something that anyone wants to hear and hearing that if I didn’t take the option of pallative chemo Christmas 2023 would be my last. We all sit and think we have forever , we never appreciate our health until it’s compromised , we don’t realise the only day that’s guaranteed is yesterday. Don’t put off till tommorrow what you can do today 💕

Cancer itself caused me no health issues but chemotherapy has opened up a whole new thing , constant tiredness , whole body aches , inability to process conversations , lack of filter , destroyed taste the list goes on , it’s debilitating but the choice is refuse it and die or take it and fight for time . I’ve had to learn to adapt and listen to my body , I’ve learnt to say no , I’ve learnt to ask for help , cancer and treatment now has to be treated as a part time job , something that dictates so many days but doesn’t ruin everyday.

After a wonderful 5 week chemo break where we got to have normal family time , caught up on lots of jobs at home , enjoyed a holiday , had days out and cooked nice meals it’s back to the grind , took every ounce of strenght today to walk through these doors knowing how chemo will make me feel for next however many days but got to fight for it not wish for it 💪🏻 let’s hope every yesterday is followed by a tommorrow for along time to come , round 8 let’s be having you

Screwyoucancer

20 March 2024 16.59

Well that didn’t go as planned 😩 too busy filling my face with jelly beans and Pringles to notice I’d dislodged my cannula and the chemo wasn’t going In my vein , was only when the pain hit of it going into muscle and fat that I knew something was wrong , another injection given to reverse any side effects , strict instructions given which I probably only half listened too 🙈 and chemo re set up in other hand , 2 weak hands now so I suppose heaviest thing I should lift is takeaway menu and phone 😜😜😂😂 chiiiinnnnnneeeeese always a silver lining 💪🏻

21 March 2024 06.27

Happy 12 th birthday to our absolute treasure Jacob , always been a sunshine amongst a storm, please don’t ever change. Enjoy your presents and birthday. Love always and forever mum xxxxxx

21 March 2024 11.48

Thought I was doing great today until I started to multitask , went to take dog to groomers while chatting on the phone gets to groomers no bloody dog I’d left her at home 😩😩

21 March 2024 17.17

When chemo and steroids munchies coincide with a birthday celebration winner winner cream bun dinner , happy birthday Jacob

22 March 2024 07.13

Hit the snooze far too many times this morning after 2 rubbish nights sleeps . Thank god it’s last alarm For 2 weeks , Easter holidays , let’s see what fun times me and Jacob can fit in 💕

22 March 2024 11.01

Only thing I’m lifting down allotment today is this bacon butty , staving

22 March 2024 17.12

Todays been a downhill kinda day , time to start climbing back uphill and get my large arse in gear for curry n catch up

23 March 2024 10.32

People are just so fooking cruel , doesn’t matter who you are what money you have in the bank cancer is cancer , royalty or not we all Have to have the same vile poison running through our veins to Kill It , only difference is the royalty will Get there chemo cuppa in a nicer cup. There ain’t anyone in this world I’d wish this ride on ,

23 March 2024 14.29

Watching my wife my abuser while giving Tony side eye 🙈 steroid life 😩😩

Tony Love is with Kirstin and Kirstin Love.

24 March 2024 17.41

Well I’ve had enough of being electrocuted every time Kirstin snores. Slept on the couch last night as she was actually snoring laying on her side waking me up and then the zap for good measure. Next week will be zap free

24 March 2024 19.40

How many young lads do we have to lose , it’s ok not to be ok, speak too your mates , family or boss , there’s absolutely no shame whatsoever in telling someone your struggling , no problem needs a permanent ending

25 March 2024 08.14

Well That’s defo a new side effect , chemo the give that keeps on giving

Kirstin is at Butlin Skegness.

25 March 2024 16.37

Look like a slug feel Like a slug but time to kick off the half term, best foot forward for me , Jacob However 😂😂

26 March 2024 14.26

Without bad luck we’d have no luck at min. Woke up To the news this morning Joseph had been in an accident in Edinburgh , he’s currently in theatre up there getting his broken bits sorted . His dad and older brother with him and I’m Trying to keep things as normal As possible for Jacob as can imagine it’s gonna be a rough ride when he’s discharged . Hate feeling helpless but nothing I can and know he’s in good hands

28 March 2024 21.24·

Fab few days away at butlins with Jacob and my mum. Always love my time at the seaside , knackered now though and looking forward to a few restful days.

Thank you everyone for your well wishes for Joseph , he’s recovering well , he’s one very lucky lad and defo had someone watching over him . One of my big worries for the future is how will my family cope without me but got to say this week they did , Tony and Samuel made the journey to be with joe and fetch him back after surgery then his girlfriend and mum have been at his side since , he’s very lucky to have 2families that love him to bits and I’m forever grateful for that ❤️

Tony Love is with Kirstin.

30 March 2024 19.27

Sparked in hospital waiting for results while catching flies and snoring so loud the patients on the wards are being kept awake. Should of brought the shock watch with me. Happy snooze Kirstin Cullen

30 March 2024 21.01

Home with antibiotics thank god , thanks for all well wishes , don’t even fancy a Chinese now 🙈🙈 potted dog and crisp sarnie then bed ,

31 March 2024 08.30

Whatever the occasion our Jacob always writes the most perfect card , absolute treasure 💕

31 March 2024 11.22

6 months of neglect but thankfully Tony and Jacob fully on board to get it turned round and get hopefully loads of veg growing. We are very lucky in normanton to be able to have such a great space for the grand sum Of £31.50 A year . Feel loads better today but biggest job I’m Getting involved with is painting some decking boards , have a great Easter weekend everyone

31 March 2024 13.23

And on Easter Sunday Jesus did rise from the dead and declared as breath came back into his body that asda and Tesco must close in his honour on Easter Sunday but sainsburys on qed would be able to open for essentials , true story of Easter

31 March 2024 14.08

How nice is it to sit n watch your big knickers flapping in the wind on the line 😂😂😂 true sign summer is on its way

Tony Love is with Kirstin.

31 March 2024 18.29

Is it even Easter if you ain’t taken advantage of a half price leg of lamb

😂😂

31 March 2024 20.26

Wondering either through experience or proffesion can anyone answer for me please. Monday night Joseph had his accident which resulted in going into theatre twice , first time was for total dislocation of his elbow second surgery was for open fracture which resulted in him needing pins and plates , he was discharged Tuesday evening and they said transfer of into between Scotland and England is none existent but they did give Tony a letter to drop In at our gp . From Memory of his past breaks ( he’s had a few 🙄 ) he was always back at fracture clinic within A few days for the temp Pot to be changed and it all checked , his expansion pot is having to be bodged as it’s coming undone . How long should it of been till He was seen in clinic ,

Kirstin is with Indiya.

1 April 2024 14.57

😂😂😂 despise a dad who refuses to pay child maintenance then goes on to breed another kid and still can’t pay for his first. Grateful that teddy has the most awesome stepdad who not only treats my niece like a queen but is the best daddy and provider to teddy , just goes to show blood means nothing , hats off to all step parents out there who chose the role 💕💕

Imagine the shame of attachments to earnings cos you refuse to pay a penny 🙈😂

1 April 2024 19.22

While ever the good days outweigh the bad I’m winning 💪🏻

Screw you cancer

Incurable but never breakable 👌☝️

2 April 2024 10.10

Was hoping for a nice relaxing dog walk this morning , dickhead dog had other ideas , chasing her while she had a hedgehog in her mouth really wasn’t part of the plan ,

5 April 2024 18.48

Been lovely to have teddy for the afternoon, growing up way too fast , nice pub tea while waiting for mummy and Josh to finish work 💕💕

6 April 2024 11.58

Pffft some right work to be done. Allotmenting isn’t for everyone it’s a massive commitment both physically and time wise . Really hoping can get it bit by bit straightened up and cleared after 6 months of neglect 💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻

Kirstin is at Gladstone Street Allotments.

7 April 2024 13.38

7 beds painted , weeded , rotivated and planted 💪🏻 set your own limitations 👍🏻

Kirstin is with Ann Cullen and Tony Love at St james hospital. Bexley wing.

8 April 2024 14.16

Should be chemo number 9 on Wednesday but an infection in my arse crack has stopped that 🙈🙈😂😂😂😂😂 the good the bad and the reality of cancer 😩😩 gonna thoroughly enjoy me bonus week 💪🏻💪🏻

Kirstin is at Pinderfields Hospital.

9 April 2024 10.31

Surely when everyone having to abandon there cars at hospital and risk getting tickets it’s time to invest money into the car park , get the grass verges tarmaced for parking and face the fact the ever growing population is pushing our nhs to the brink

9 April 2024 16.43

Yum Yum get in my tum

11 April 2024 07.58

Nice forecast for next few days, best get washer on full

Speed and get the big knickers flapping in the breeze , pencil

Myself in some allotment hours as well , plenty to get done down there . Love the brighter days and lighter nights definately puts a spring in your step 💕

11 April 2024 15.57

That little happy dance you do when you finally find the bottom of the washing basket and ironing pile 💪🏻

12 April 2024 15.31

Thankgod it’s Friday , hit snooze a dozen times everyday this week after a busy 2 week Easter break , Jacob settled straight back in and proudly came home with a postcard home today. Keep it up son your doing fantastic 👍🏻💕

Kirstin is with Joanne Louisa and 2 others

12 April 2024 21.09

Nice to have an evening out adulting. Lovely meal at cinnamon lounge followed by a Coke by canal at navigation , thanks Chris and Joanne great company as always 💕

13 April 2024 14.48

Peaceful stress free Saturday pffffft how many lives can one kid have 😩😩

15 April 2024 20.09

Heating back on winter pose resumed 🐶🐶

16 April 2024 13.47

Ain’t afraid to admit life crept up on me this weekend and i mentally hit the wall , what ever your battles whatever your hurdles In life it’s defo ok not to be ok 👌

Don’t ever be afraid to speak out , the listening ear is often from the person you least expect 💕

Some new found mojo , garden getting the loving it needs , even thrown some healthy eating in , come to realisation seen as everything tastes the same now cos chemo destroyed my taste may as well eat good stuff and try get some weight off .

Life isn’t a dress rehearsal make the most of every day , yesterday is guaranteed tommorrow is a blessing

17 April 2024 14.33

Well after a bonus week , no 9 in the bag , each one gets harder than the last and takes longer to recover each time but , got to be in it to win it , I may not know when my story will end but no where in it will it say I gave up 💪🏻 living till the day I die 💕

17 April 2024 22.19

Steroids and chemo combined , sat here debating whether to start decorating kitchen or getting my large arse to bed.

Kirstin is with Tony Love.

18 April 2024 06.58

Love nothing more now light mornings have kicked in to wake up

To the sun coming through the windows so I sleep With the curtains open , Tony hates it , another year I’ve compromised to keep The peace , one open one closed 🙈I’ll Take that as a win 💪🏻😂

18 April 2024 14.54

Zip it Kirstin zip it 🤐 🤐🤐🤐

19 April 2024 12.37

Don’t know where my biggest battle lies today , in my head or in my body , wouldn’t wish this shit on no one 💔

20 April 2024 09.51

13 hours kip = happy kirstin

Have a fab weekend everyone

20 April 2024 18.50

Quickest I’ve moved all day , bloody Olympic sport trying to catch icecream van round here

21 April 2024 11.47

Let the growing season begin . Just a shame you cant grow cream buns

21 April 2024 19.31

Been looking forward to a chicken dinner all day , scroll Facebook as I’m Cooking and see someone having steak pie and someone having chicken and veg pie , don’t want a chicken dinner want pie , man can identify as a woman but no hard I try this bloody chicken dinner wouldn’t identify as a pie , chucked in bin Kirstin with food monk on and consolation cream bun , farmer Copley’s first stop tomoz 💪🏻💪🏻

22 April 2024 19.39

Nice slow and steady day. Gone through about 10 years of paperwork condensing it down and getting in order and todays win finding something that tastes great 💪🏻 cloud of chemo steadily lifted let’s hope for some great days

23 April 2024 11.08

Jeez this time last week baggy knickers will flapping on line and we was all embracing the glorious weather , there now blocking all the heat from the radiators , blinking freezing talk about 4 seasons in one week

24 April 2024 19.51

Them poor horses from royal Calvery in London this morning, startled by noise threw off the riders and galloped scared through streets of London, they caused great damage to a bus and taxi and pedestrians , hopefully the horses recover and can carry on there duty , if that’s not a stark warning to slow down, not rev and defo not beep your horn when your passing horses I don’t know what is .

25 April 2024 14.35

Coming back thick n fast and every colour under sun 🙈🙈 this single chemo I’m on now is supposed to cause hair thinning can live in hope it thins

Kirstin is at The Cue Club.

25 April 2024 20.57

Despite a mega busy day with appointments galore felt like a caged hen tonight , best split second decision tonight , yay to a sport I can play 👍🏻

27 April 2024 16.18

Always grateful for a visit , god bless John , life’s cruel and wouldn’t wish the torment of dementia on anyone ,

29 April 2024 07.27

Why Tony thought buying Jacob a recorder at Jorvik yesterday was a good idea god only knows , slowly being tortured 😩😩😩

Kirstin is at St james hospital. Bexley wing.

2 May 2024 14.54

The day I’ve learnt to dread , scan day. Be an anxious weeks wait for results , shame oncologist forgot to book it in and it’s 2 weeks late , keep Your fingers crossed for me

2 May 2024 20.46

Ain’t many things that get me gripped on telly but “Red eye “ wow fantastic

Kirstin is at St james hospital. Bexley wing.

3 May 2024 12.24

Blood tests and mot time , bet blood pressure sky high , never again will I go Costco en route , lost all

Sense of direction to get to here and flapped like a good one

3 May 2024 19.28

Oncology appointment done even though the oncologist didn’t turn up 🙄🙄 thankfully I’ve a fantastic sarcoma nurse who really understands me and knew after sat waiting 90 minutes over my appointment time and he wasn’t even in the building she stepped in way above her pay grade to sort me out , I’m fat , fit and well and bloods recovered ready for round 10 next week , she even went the extra mile to get my scan sorted from yesterday as she knows how worried I’ve been with the way the pain has changed this past month .

No growth , no spread so we celebrate stability 💪🏻💪🏻 the most gorgeous hand made caramel shortbread and a cuppa to celebrate and hopefully a settled nights sleep tonight. I may be fighting a battle I won’t win but I hope I keep fighting for along time to come , none of us are guaranteed tommorrow 💕

4 May 2024 21.26

Dog sitting for a friend for the week , scout came to us such a well Behaved dog and hoped she’d teach ours some manners , sadly seems like ours have taught her some 🙈😂😂

Kirstin is at Pinderfields Hospital.

7 May 2024 10.11

With the one with 99 lives , can’t wait to check into Something other than a hospital

Kirstin is with Tony Love.

7 May 2024 13.24

Well that’s Tony away to Switzerland for a few days , best take advantage of a couple nights on my own as come Friday he leaves extract technology to Move to pastures new , lifes changed so much this past 7 months and feel at times we are trapped in a whirlwind , I’m sure we will have some ding dongs along the way as we adapt to fresh routines and challenges oh and of course 365 nights a year of snoring 😩😩

Kirstin is with Tony Love.

8 May 2024 15.25

Double digits round 10

Let’s be having you 💪🏻 people keep asking how many do I have to have , reality is I hope it’s hundreds as that means I’m stable and get to be around for many years to Come . Kinda got into the routine of it all Now and in many ways know what to expect , today and tomoz I’ll Be billy bollox hulk won’t be able to sleep will start 100 jobs and finish none , I’ll order boat loads of stuff I don’t need to fill The time , Friday I’ll Be raging at the constant deliveries and disturbing my sofa surfing , Saturday I’ll crash and hate the world and everyone in it and Sunday I’ll start the bounce back. Forever grateful For everyone that spurrs me on. My circle may of got smaller on this journey but it’s defo got stronger

Screwyoucancer☝️

Woohoo forgot as well 6 weeks treatment break now ,

8 May 2024 16.49

Sent Jacob up to Asda with a tenner to get some bread and apples and told him to treat himself with change , he comes back all Full of smiles and proudly shows off a box of fish he’s treated himself too , fish , fooking fish 🙄 is he even my child 😂😂😂😂

8 May 2024 19.55

Sat pondering whether my ongologist would change my chemo day and whether my reasoning of best Chinese’s are closed on a Wednesday would be a good enough reason 🙈🙈

9 May 2024 08.50

For the first time ever I’ve slept in on a school day , remember waking and shouting Jacob then woke back up to

Him trying to find keys to get out the house to get to school on time , must of needed it after my 12-3am steroid pacing , thinking your a plumber , decorator and amazons best customer between those hours wasn’t my brightest move , oh well more to add to Tony’s to finish list 😂😂😂

Kirstin is at Courtyard Dental Care.

9 May 2024 11.06

Well this could be fun , oncologist and dentist spoke and apparently best time for me to get root canal is day after chemo while immunity at its best 😩😩 I’m rambling my mouth off , in full blow steroid rage and can’t see how I can lay still and keep my mouth open for half hour , pray for my dentist 😂😂😂😂

9 May 2024 13.00

Tony due home from Switzerland at tea time and I’ve still 9 more deliveries due 🙈🙈 got some right middle of the night bargains , now to find a home , use and a purpose for glitch impulse buys 😂😂

10 May 2024 10.32

Approach with caution today , steroid rage , steroid munchies and a mouth too sore to contemplate anything but drinks , a hungry Kirstin defo isn’t a happy Kirstin .

Let this sun come out and throw my rage into a few hours down allotment

14 May 2024 11.25

Just been given 10% off my shopping in iceland for being over 60 😂😂 grey hair at 45 🙈 ain’t many perks with cancer but I’ll take the £3.80 saving as one 😂😂😩💪🏻

15 May 2024 11.06

Random question 🙈🙈 if an airline offer you a medical allowance via special assistance do they even check what’s in it. Would hate to think they’d open it expecting it to be medical supplies and actually it’s just full of biscuits and sweets and then charge me 😂😂😂

Kirstin shared a memory.

16 May 2024 13.00

Never ever did I think that my dads bravery and courage with his diagnosis with cancer would be an example I’d ever have to learn from💕 never far from my heart and thoughts , can’t believe it’s been nearly 3 years

16 May 2024 17.08

When a normal day turns into one of those crazy days with emotions all over but despite a massively broken system you realise that kindness and compassion exists amongst strangers 💕

18 May 2024 16.30

Wouldn’t mind that I’d just finish the cakes I started 😂😂😂

Kirstin is with Tony Love.

19 May 2024 08.02

24 years together, happy 6 th wedding anniversary to us , the years have flown by , life has never been calm And peaceful

For us but don’t think we’d cope with that, 3 sons that have done nothing but keep us on our toes but wouldn’t of had it any other way 💕💕

19 May 2024 11.27

One very special lady , always remembered. Good old doreen always knew the right things to say but often put her foot in it 😂 my pork pie and cream buddy , so pleased she celebrated our wedding with us .

20 May 2024 08.43

Why hello Monday , fresh new week and let’s hope it’s a kinder one than last week , thank you everyone that helped in one way or another even if you just gave me a distraction, best give the house a good scrub and quick trip to st James and then get ready for turning the alarm clock off and enjoying the half term next week. Good luck to Tony in his first day of his new job and good luck To Me having him home every night 😩 thank You everyone that wished us a happy anniversary . Hope you all Have a fantastic week

Kirstin is at Heathfield farm Birkenshaw west Yorkshire.

21 May 2024 10.12

Starting the day with a full

Belly 🐷

21 May 2024 21.29 (our dogs)

These 2 clowns defo make house a home 💕🐶

Kirstin is with Alison Parratt and Millie Parratt in Sharm El Sheik

23 May 2024 07.31

Chemo break ✔️

Fit to fly ✔️

Beach body ✖️

Woohoo , bye bye rain hello

Half term sunshine , live life for the moment ❤️

23 May 2024 08.41

(packets and packets of sweets)

May of forgotten my knickers but remembered this lot 🙈🙈🙈 but priorities 😂😂😂

Kirstin is with Alison Parratt.

24 May 2024 08.01

Kirstin anything you want on SHEIN, yes alison a mega big rubber ring so I can bob along in the pool Chilling 😂😂😂😂😂

(Pool ring is so small she cant actually get in it)

Tony Love..

25 May 2024 08.18

Happy birthday Kirstin love you, enjoy Egypt and recharge ❤️

Kirstin is with Alison Parratt and

3 others

25 May 2024 16.36

Thank you everyone for my birthday wishes , had a fantastic day chilling in the plus 40 degree heat , thank you Alison for the effort in making it a special Day , our fantastic cleaner for the fantastic towel art and cake , chapter 46 lets be having you , live life for the moment 💕💕

Kirstin is with Alison Parratt at Coral Sea Waterworld Resort.

25 May 2024 18.07

Sharm el-Sheikh, Egypt

Hardened all inclusive drinkers 😂😂

26 May 2024 08.46

Someone turn thermostat down , melting , but what a glorious place to Melt in 💕💕

27 May 2024 05.54

A whole 3 years since we heard your voice , times flown by but equally it’s stood still , dad your missed so Much , so many things you should still be part of , truly hope you reunited with your loved ones 💕💕

27 May 2024 07.52

Mum,Do I need to suncream in your ripples and folds 😂😂

Kirstin Cullen is with Alison Parratt.

28 May 2024 08.30

Sunburnt scalps 😩😩 thankfully egypts finest knockoffs hats 😂😂

Kirstin is with Alison Parratt.

29 May 2024 15.06

Sunny days are the best days ☀️ ☀️☀️✔️💕

30 May 2024 05.32

Best thing I ever did at new year was give my head a shake and decide cancer had to be treated as a part time job, try slot it into normal Life and book time off from it . It’s all Too easy to allow long term illness to define you and focus on what you can’t do . Will Take more than stage 4 incurable cancer to stop me living my best life 💪🏻💕

Kirstin is with Alison Parratt.

31 May 2024 16.48

Another great day in the 40 degree heat . We must be showing our age as was asked was we enjoying time with grandkids 🙈🙈 I couldn’t stop laughing alison wished deli belly on him and is google searching Botox 😂😂😂

1 June 2024

Our time here is coming to an end but loved every minute of it 💕💕

Kirstin is at T2 Arrivals Manchester Airport.

3 June 2024 04.30

Well that was a delay we didn’t need, get me home for a cuppa 🍵

4 June 2024 09.18

In a world full of adversity we must still dare to dream Rob burrow 💕

What a hero to so many and such an aspirational person , we are all on the path to the end sadly some quicker than others , every day is a blessing to us all

4 June 2024 19.00

As much as foods been fab at the hotel

And enjoyed every meal it’s nice to be home and cooking what you fancy 😋😋

4 June 2024 21.16

Sunak v Starmer debate live on TV…

It’s a bit like asking either Fred West or Peter Sutcliffe to date your daughter!

5 June 2024 16.22

203 days left on my travel insurance and no holidays booked now pffffft best get looking 🙈

7 June 2024 19.53

Rock n roll Friday night , heating on and tucked up in bed , night everyone

9 June 2024 14.58

7 hours later and sorted 😩😩 let’s hope these tablets work , been very lucky that despite my diagnosis I’m Very rarely poorly or in pain and just crack on , nana nap time now 💪🏻

Kirstin is with Ann Cullen at St james hospital. Bexley wing.

9 June 2024 22.17

Not where I wanted to end the weekend but hey ho

Kirstin Cullen is with Alison Parratt and 3 others 10.53

12 June 2024

Morning world : what a messed up few days that’s been , still no further forward though the extreme pain is a complete blockage “ officially full of shit “ and no matter what they put up or down no movement can’t even rustle up a fart 🙈🙈 temperature which they though was a water infection there now saying part of my tumour has rotted and infected hence temps of near 40 degree . Don’t know whether it starting to rot is a good or bad thing long term. . Nil by mouth has ended 💕💕😂 think there plan was by starving my bowel Of food n water it would have to start moving plus couldn’t keep anything down not even water as body is officially full . What pisses me off more than ought is came back from A fantastic holiday and thought right get arse in gear and get some weight off , started mindful Eating and look at shit state I end up In , if you ever hear me mention word diet please remind me of the pain that not even morphine touches . Thank you for all

The love and support , really is appreciated 💕💕

12 June 2024 13.05

So apparently cos I was nil by mouth first thing this morning I’ve had no food allocated for the day, they can’t change that so basically your left to starve . Thankfully where food is concerned I’ll muster up every ounce of strenght to get into canteen and grab something and equally have the money to do that . Fuming for those that can’t . Morngy Kirstin has appeared

Joanne Louisa is with Kirstin at St james hospital. Bexley wing.

12 June 2024 13.41

Come to visit my bezzie 😍

12 June 2024 17.44

Shame the 9 people in the lift didn’t share my absolute joy at a fart that lasted from floor 4 to zero 😂😂😂 let’s hope things on the move 🙈😂😂

13 June 2024 08.50

Look like shit feel like shit and still full Of shit . Would rather be having a re run of labour than this , morphine for breakfast , happy chuffing days ,

13 June 2024 12.54

Well she didn’t dare fetch me an empty tray today 🙈🙈

Kirstin Cullen is with Ann Cullen and Tony Love.

13 June 2024 20.57

Someone save me 😩😩

Broken nhs cheers tories 🙄

A nurse that doesn’t know an arsehole from a fanny hole 🙈🙈 felt like I was on a teenage date with a rampant lad saying “ you’ve got wrong hole “ when she was squirting the enima in 😂😂😂 good job I can laugh my way through , tbh if I don’t laugh through this invisible shit storm id cry and I don’t want it to win .

Had some lovely messages , visits and calls and appreciate every one , Claire thank you for the flowers there gorgeous .

Morphined up now and ready for bed , night world 💕💕

14 June 2024 13.13

Oh my days it’s like a tube of Pringles 😂😂💪🏻 once you pop you can’t stop

14 June 2024 19.30

11 shits later and I’m home 😂😂😂 antibiotics switched to tablets from iv and strict instructions given . So thankful this week for the good people that surround me , support , encouragement , laughter is what we all need in every battle .

Early night on the cards and a weekend of sofa surfing planned . Have a fab weekend everyone 💕💕

15 June 2024 12.31

Random but this has confused me , pain relief I’ve been given is paracetamol and morphine , basically if para doesn’t work take morphine , surely there’s gotta be something middle ground to take , I defo won’t ever be using codeine again though. I’ll

Be asking at hospital next week but curious

16 June 2024 19.20

Think I’ve thoroughly earnt my fave bun after week I’ve had 💪🏻

Bonus of the week I lost 9 lb 🙈🙈

17 June 2024 08.04

Last 5 weeks of term not that I’m counting 🙈 and that’s year 7 completed , amazed at the resilience Jacob has shown in so many areas and no matter what’s going on he just gets on with it . He’s surrounded by some good people and for that I’m

Forever grateful 💕

17 June 2024 10.12

3.30 am

Start to the day , errands run , productive hour down allotment , bath and pj time I reckon 🥱

18 June 2024 14.35

3 am starts ain’t good on the body or the bank 🙈🙈

Kirstin is with Joanne Louisa.

19 June 2024 07.08

Happy 46 th birthday to the kind of best friend anyone could hope to wish for . From the age of 9 we’ve stuck by each other through the good , bad , funny and mischievous times , not just a Rock to me but my family also, love you all

The world and more 💕💕

19 June 2024 13.58

Last week may of kicked me down but no way was it keeping me down , there amazed my bloods recovered to be back

For chemo round 11 as planned 💪🏻💪🏻 got to keep chipping away 💕

19 June 2024 16.06

Well That’s chemo 11 ticked off ✔️

First time ever came out and was sick as a pig , let’s hope the stomach fast settles as Chinese and chemo day go hand in hand 🙈

19 June 2024 20.56

I often question the reasons behind things . Last weeks hospital stay certainly raised things. I spent alot of time watching and listening as not much else to do , I was on a ward of pensioners , one lady was so friendly and helpful for me and I fast noticed she never got a visitor , we sat and chatted and she said she

Had no family or friends and had sadly lost her husband a few years previous. Sadly she’s on a cancer journey and 3 weeks into a hospital

Stay , it’s raised loads of questions in my mind and thankfully through her open nature she was able to answer . She’s stuck in my mind , much to Tony’s dismay I sent him home last week with her dirty washing 🙈🙈 there’s no facility in hosp

For her to do it. Same as I sent him for supplies 😂 today I got to chemo an hour early to take her to Costa downstairs for a coffee and chat , costs absolutely nothing in this world to

Be kind , last week makes sense now , I may not be able to take away her suffering but I can show that someone cares 💕 when life throws you stones use them

To build a castle

Kirstin is with Joanne Louisa at Toby Carvery.

20 June 2024 09.32

Wakefield

Did someone say all u can eat brekkie 🙈🙈

20 June 2024 12.26

Steroids are telling me I can climb a mountain and fly a plane 🙈🙈 I’ve compromised . Pushbike dusted off and a steady ride , family tracker on just in case I end up in a hedge 😂😂

20 June 2024 13.50

Saddle sore , I’ll take that new ailment on the chin , been along time since it’s seen any action 😂😂😂

20 June 2024 16.56

Breakfast out , quick shopping trip , bike ride , hour down allotment , tea prepared and now fence painting , honestly steroids turn you from super slug to a machine . Maybe dwp

Should start giving em

To

The lazy don’t want to work brigade 🙈

Kirstin Cullen is at Attlee Court Nursing Home Community.

20 June 2024 20.59

Not where I wanted to end the day but family is family and will

Always come first , thankfully after throwing himself outta bed and busting his nose open John is fine , paramedics gave him a good check over and we’ve sat and drunk tea and eaten biscuits and cakes with the crew whilst they sorted paperwork , nice to off been able to turn it into a little social evening for John, god bless him

22 June 2024 11.05

Let your mind take your body to where it needs to be 💕

22 June 2024 15.25

Happy 51 st birthday mr love , thank you for letting your day be my choice , can’t beat a few hours at the British seaside

23 June 2024 17.08

Whether I sit , lie down , rest or run pain don’t change , so may as well take advantage of the glorious weather , finished the fence painting at home , garden cleared , housework can wait till it’s raining. My case is being discussed at mdt meeting tomoz at st James . Mentally ready to challenge them that I wouldn’t keep a rotting piece of meat in my fridge at home and regardless of them declaring me inoperable I ain’t having rotting tumour left in my body 💪🏻

24 June 2024 13.12

Stage 4 cancer patient , can get priority at Alton towers and free admission into multiple places plus a blue badge , yet at 8 am this morning request medication with queens cos I’ve 2 doses left to be told can have a routine appointment with nurse later in week , yes right mrs receptionist give your head a roll before I do

Kirstin is with Ann Cullen.

25 June 2024 17.54

Well I got my update today from Yesterdays MDT meeting at st James , apparently part of the tumour going necrotic is a sign that

11 rounds in the chemo is starting to hit it , there had been worry when I was in hospitalThat the disease has progressed but thankfully I’m

Still classed as stable , removing the tumour at this point would stop

Treatment which there’s chance whilst I have a long recovery the disease would progress in other areas especially my liver which is heavily covered , the pain is apparently part and parcel Of my life as it is now and I need to Be thankful that 10 mths into an incurable diagnosis of extensive cancer that I’ve been relatively fit and well and it’s only just caught up with me . Timetable given for painkillers so I’m

Kept topped up rather than reaching for them when in pain . Gotta keep

Marching forward and pray I’m in it for a long slog and just keep adapting to suit , life’s tough , this past 10 Months been an absolute rollercoaster but I’m

Thankful for everyone of you that’s consistently taken the time to spur me on and shown that I’m Not battling this alone 💕💕

Screwyoucancer

You may knock me down but I’ll always get back up 💪🏻💪🏻

25 June 2024 19.57

Quite a lucky day really 💕 settling news from oncologist , a generous Krispy Kreme too good to go 🙈 and then walking back through next they was putting some right bargains out , these are extras so if you want them for what I paid your welcome , Lyle and scott size small tenner , Jack wolfskin size xl but I’d say more a 12-14 eleven quid and then Craig hopper size 12 eleven quid , on the hottest day of year grab yourself a bargain winter coat😂

26 June 2024 14.11

Been 1 step forward 9 steps back

With allotment this year , but quite happy with how it is now , no where near as much growing as in previous years but I don’t like veg this year 🙈😂

Kirstin is at St James hospital. Bexley wing.

27 June 2024 12.00

Nice to be here as a visitor not a patient , costa and a catch up

With Carol 💕

Some friendships start in the weirdest of circumstances but embrace them

28 June 2024 12.24

Jeez gone from wanting to buy a air conditioning unit to want to put heating back on all Within a matter of days

28 June 2024 13.34

Stuck on the m1 car park cos someone has decided they want to hang over the bridge, busting for a piss , wonder if camper van in front of me will let me use there loo 🙈😂

One of the rescued puppies new owner

29 June 2024 07.56

5 year’s of loving our gorgeous little rescue rogue 💙 how anyone could have left you outside in that intense heat I’ll never know but one person’s loss is another one’s gain and we was the lucky ones ❤️ I’ll be forever grateful to Kirstin Cullen for letting us be his forever family 🥰

29 June 2024 22.03

Since Tony’s stopped traveling overseas and home most nights he’s decided he doesn’t like sharing the bed with the dogs , enjoy the sofa Tony 🙈🙈🙈

2 July 2024 08.38

Leiomyosarcona month. What does it mean to be diagnosed with a rare cancer , well firstly In the uk it’s a struggle to find oncologists that will do anything other than put you on death row , equally when you do find one your made aware you cancer is above there trusts budget , it’s hard to connect with people on the same journey although I’m thankful I’ve found some lovely people dealt the same shit hand in life but like me continue to battle 💪🏻 , when time is something your short on you realise how quickly the pages of the calendar turn over. It’s taken me on a journey I never expected in life but it’s given me the opportunity to see life in a totally different way . I don’t have a bucket list as ultimately if I’ve wanted to do something I’ve always just done it , I sit and look at people wasting there life and feel a pang of jealousy that wish I had mine to waste , for us all we are only guaranteed yesterdays , tomorrow is a blessing . I’ve been very open About my journey as it’s a coping mechanism for me but equally so many are affected by cancer in one way or another so I do hope my insight may help others. Chemo has changed me , it’s affected me mentally and physically , many days I wake up feeling like I’m at the bottom of a mountain and question how will I manage to climb it that day, but I do , I discovered an inner strength I didn’t know I had , a sense of determination I didn’t know existed but more than anything I discovered the support and love that I have from so many people who walk beside me spurring me on and for that I’ll forever be grateful 💕💕

2 July 2024 11.45

Another job cracked off the “ to do list “ butty in the fresh air time now ,

2 July 2024 14.02

Well that’s my contribution towards the house done for the day , bath and winter pjs time 👌

2 July 2024 21.03

Tired ain’t the word . Can’t even blame it on chemo . It’s called sleeping with a fooking steam train , well

Sometimes it’s Daffy Duck , other times he’s blowing bubbles , other times sounds like gargling on vomit and if I’m lucky just a gentle snore . So benefits of Tony stopping overseas travel , I’ll let u know when I can get a good enough kip to think straight 😩😩🙈

3 July 2024 09.37

Only so many times you can lead a horse to water before you say fook it go thirsty . Really don’t have the time , effort or inclination to continue wasting valuable time on lost causes . Can’t keep continue giving someone your best when all they give you is there worst .

Have a fantastic day everyone I know I will 💪🏻👌

3 July 2024 11.39

Motivated morning , up bright n early dogs walked , asda shop done , washing sorted and kitchen scrubbed en painted . Ain’t no flies on my shit today 😂 defo worked an appetite up, looking to lunch out with family 💕

Kirstin is with Ann Cullen.

3 July 2024 15.17

Family meals are the best meals , pogged now though , nana nap time

Kirstin is feeling sarcastic at Queens Street Surgery 60 Queen Street

4 July 2024 12.57

When the doctor asks any chance you may be pregnant , well

If I am it’ll be batteries I give birth too 🙈😂pfft

Kirstin is at Cafe 19.

5 July 2024 10.16

Healthy breakfast option with added black pudding and fried bread so now the unhealthiest of healthy breakfasts , good intention was there for 3 seconds 😂😂 always nice to see Sarah and have a quick catch up and food spot on as always

5 July 2024 23.04

Tonight would be perfect if pain went away and Tony wasn’t imitating a steam train 💪🏻😂 not asking for much

6 July 2024 13.24

So 10 Mths ago I entered the chemical

Menopause with chemo , countless hot flushes and moods and every other delight that comes with it , past few days ovaries have sprung back to life and having a period. This is defo the kinda shit I don’t need and not the mood I wanted this weekend , can’t wait to start the menopause all over again said no one ever 🙈🙈 cancer really is the give that keeps on giving , screw you cancer

Kirstin is feeling determined at St James’s University Hospital.

8 July 2024 14.20

Today I did what I’ve needed to do for along time, absolutely lost my shit , sick to death of failings , sick to death of zero consistency , sick of being over a trusts budget , sick of not understanding my own diagnosis other than being on death row , sick

Of never having the same oncologist , sick of everyone having to read my notes as they don’t know my history , absolutely sick of being sick, rant over . Good news is bloods are good 💪🏻

8 July 2024 19.36

Super chilled out this one tonight

9 July 2024 18.25

Tv lost all signal , just know next thing will be a power cut , damn unpredictable summers , gutted for the freeston lot for prom

Tonight

10 July 2024 10.33

Bouncing into

Chemo number 12 , get the shit into me then steadily let my body get it out and hopefully bounce into a good run at the school summer holidays , life at times has to be adjusted and modified but normal life has to carry on as much as possible , nice early slot for me today , hopefully be home in time to catch a chippie dinner 🙈💪🏻💕

10 July 2024 13.33

Made it , happy Kirstin 😋👌 chippie dinner down allotment 💪🏻

10 July 2024 15.16

Sometimes I can’t help myself and look back , look back at pictures and look back at words , 39 weeks since I had my first chemo , it’s definitely been challenging , it’s taken grit , determination and mental resilience , but without it my time here would of already ended , 13 weeks into bonus time 💪🏻 every day is a gift for which I’m

Thankful 🙏🏻 honestly friends , make the most of your life , reach out and grab it , don’t put off what you can do today , our time on earth is limited , we are only guaranteed every yesterday 💕💕

10 July 2024 15.44

Flip side , what a great 39 weeks I’ve had , best New Year’s resolution I’ve ever made was treat cancer as a part time job , fit things round it , book time off from It , managed to still get the holidays in , thoroughly enjoyed a family trip to hurghada and a friends trip to Sharm . Some great weekends away to Butlin’s and Scarborough and lovely days out in between , took on projects at home most are still half finished 🙈 but intention was there 😂 just pray now weather picks up for summer holidays as I defo won’t be sticking fast at home. Do last minute bargain holidays even exist anymore as from what I see there getting most expensive closer you get to date.

Kirstin is at Normanton Town Council.

10 July 2024 18.56

Allotment meeting whilst on a steroid ramble 😩😩🙄

10 July 2024 20.09

Giving myself a massive pat on the back for showing the self restraint and control to not actually fly across the table tonight to flatten what can only be described as a rude , cantankerous, derogatory, racist individual , vile person and I tell

You now if he was a plot holder on our site he’d be fast getting buried in it 🤬🤬

11 July 2024 08.09

Kid won’t even look at me after I cranked up the volume to sweet caroline when dropping him and his pals of at school this morning , his friends found it hilarious 😂😂😂embarrassing mum no shits given . Wait till Monday if they win I’ll be turning up music blaring dressed in a flag

11 July 2024 08.58

Turkey and pickled onion sarnie kinda breakfast , got to roll with the taste buds 🙈💪🏻

12 July 2024 09.45

Yesterday rapidly became a write off , that’s the unpredictability with chemo never know how each one’s gonna hit you and in what way. Feeling bit better after an early night last night but starving after only having a sarnie for tea , steadily potter with some jobs as house is a bomb and hopefully find bottom of wash basket whilst rain stays away. Have a great day everyone 💕

Kirstin is with Ann Cullen at New Eastern Court Restaurant.

12 July 2024 12.42

The words I needed to hear today “ fancy an all you can eat Chinese buffet “ cheers mum 💕

Kirstin is with Alison Parratt.

14 July 2024 10.20

Alison Parratt has been hacked , please don’t fall for any of her messages or posts

14 July 2024 15.25

When a salesman tries to sell you a lifetime warranty 😂😂

Nah pal there’s a tin of corned beef in my cupboard with a longer expiry date than me 🙈😂😂👌

15 July 2024 11.41

If you don’t ask you don’t get 😂😂👌👌

Kirstin is with Ann Cullen.

15 July 2024 14.10

Never thought I’d ever be part of an awareness day , but hey hoy that’s life , whipped my arse this past month has leiomyosarcoma , first ever hospital stay due to tumour going necrotic which is rare , developed an allergy to codeine again rare , started my periods 10 months after being put in chemical

Menopause which is unheard of let’s hope me ticking the boxes of rare and unheard of is a sign that I can equally be one of the rare ones that outlive expectations 💪🏻💪🏻

16 July 2024 08.24

What’s on my mind , food , starving and I mean starving

Kirstin shared a memory.

17 July 2024 07.03

Wish we was getting the same weather this year , miss seeing Lennie down allotment , really was a character

Kirstin is at Gladstone Street Allotments.

17 July 2021 14.05

🌞🌞 it’s a warm one , keep hydrated lads and lasses

18 July 2024 21.11

Woohooo one more alarm

Clock and then a whole 47 days off without one , always loved the summer holidays , time to get my plotting and planning head on

19 July 2024 09.15

Literally sums up last night , nurses and doctors struggled to get to work at st James . Equally staff couldn’t get home from there shifts , an absolute disgrace to our country. Time to shut the borders and get tough , literally fathers with baby’s in there arms taking part in it all

Kirstin is at Golden Sands, Haven Holiday Camp, Mablethorpe.

19 July 2024 17.05

Mablethorpe

Kicking off the summer holidays with the Annual

Dogs holiday , home for the next week , hopefully the sun stays out for us 🐶 💕🐶

19 July 2024 20.14

One of nicest dog walks I’ve had for ages

20 July 2024 14.32

Nice 26 degrees , chippie dinner and nice few hours on beach ,

20 July 2024 19.41

Caravan teas , can do healthy when I try 🙈

21 July 2024 13.04

Bit cooler today which makes it easier for dogs ,

24 July 2024 08.19

Don’t know what’s actually worse 😩😩 laying awake half night listening to Tony snoring or laying awake listening to Lottie licking sand outta her fadge most of night 😩😩🙈

24 July 2024 10.38

Lovely walk this morning , hope the sun breaks through today

24 July 2024 15.47

Always food involved 😂😂

26 July 2024 18.53

Rock n roll Friday. Olympics , semolina and a dollop of jam

27 July 2024 11.10

Jacob happy with his carrot 😂

Kirstin is at Thackray Museum of Medicine.

29 July 2024 14.38

When your up bright and early for a oncology appointment so decide to go

To medical museum After which is part of the hospital , most boring museum

I’ve ever been to in my life 🙄🙄 bright side oncologist declared me still

Fat and well 🙈😂

30 July 2024 12.18

Fresh tomatoes anyone , over run with them

30 July 2024 13.01

Time we protected our pensioners , send those in boats straight back and keep our elderly warm

30 July 2024 18.24

Hard to comprehend a group of kids skipping out the door all excited for a dance class to then come face to face with a monster , 3 dead but so many other lifes destroyed , can’t imagine as a child to witness such horror how you can ever get over it , thinking of everyone including the emergency services who have to deal with the aftermath some sporn of the devil created

31 July 2024 11.13

Temporary pause on the school

Holiday fun for chemo number 13, hopefully just a couple days of being tired , moody and hungry and back in

The game , as much as a chemo ward isn’t an ideal place for a 12 year old he needs to see it’s nothing he should worry about , I come have a laugh , rattle away to loads of people , and to be honest it’s a social event as well

As medical

, volunteered him

For tea trolly duty may as well

Put him to good use 👌

Massive double middle finger up

To cancer today

31 July 2024 12.42

Job done 💪🏻💪🏻 scan next week but for now time to switch off From cancer , easiest way through is treat it as a part time job without the pay check 👌

31 July 2024 14.24

Got to love Aldi banter

1 August 2024 09.09

Woo jeez that was some random shit last night . Round 13 rapidly threw of some new scary shit , defo an unlucky number for me , didn’t even have a Chinese or cream bun must of been bad 🙈 fresh day today though just need to ride the tide and wait for it to pass 💪🏻

1 August 2024 11.44

Getting told off for plugging in a Hoover and test driving it at curry 🙈 they should be grateful I’ve hoovered full

Aisle for em

😂 fook em ☝️

1 August 2024 14.04

Can’t wait this hoover all house with my “ second hand “ hoover , preaching its second hand cos I’ve used it to hoover part of there shop

So I can see if knacks where I’m

In pain , shouldn’t of told me they’d have to sell

It reduced 😂😂 only ever gonna be one winner when you’re charged up with steroid 💪🏻☝️😂😂 might have to set up my fan as well that I bought with the savings 🙈😂💪🏻🆙

2 August 2024 11.44

Sarnie and suntan down allotment 💪🏻

5 August 2024 13.25

Pfffft round 13 hit hard , floored me this weekend , thankfully bit more full

Of life today , get caught up

On jobs and try enjoy a week of ok ish weather 💪🏻

Kirstin shared a memory.

5 August 2024

As if it’s been a year since my tumour was discovered, what a can of worms that was opening , who’d of thought what it would lead to and the mental

Strenght and physical

Fight I’d have to find , grateful to everyone that’s been part of it and spurred me on 💪🏻

6 August 2024 08.24

Realised alot this past year, Friends are like underwear, always near you. Good friends are like condoms, always protecting you. Best friends are like Viagra, lift you up when you are down, and crap friends are like a std catch you unaware and hang round with no purpose

Kirstin is at The Broken Bridge.

6 August 2024 09.43

£3.14 for a brekkie , ain’t worth washing your own pans

6 August 2024 15.40

Not quite the afternoon I had planned but family is family and will always be priority 💕 lovely paramedics we had for John and hopefully for there extra care and compassion we’ve avoided a hospital stay

7 August 2024 13.16

Really should check next time that the same day urgent appointment the doctor booked me is actually the same day 🙈🙈 least I’ve done a dummy run at getting there as they’ve booked me at methley , same time tomoz 😂😂

Kirstin is with Joseph Love and 3 others

8 August 2024 21.40

Food and family my 2 favourite things 💕

Kirstin is at St james hospital. Bexley wing.

9 August 2024 15.35

Ct scan with contrast time , results are outta my control but I know I’ve given it my all 💪🏻 try switch off now or I’ll drive myself crackers waiting for results

9 August 2024 16.28

Sad reality of impending riots and unrest this weekend , st James hospital

is free parking till Monday so staff can feel safe coming to work as after the riots there other week many have expressed concerns for there safety this weekend

10 August 2024 14.23

So Joseph Love is buying a paraglider 😩😩😩 taking bets on how long till we are sat in a and e 🙈🙈😂😂

Kirstin shared a memory.

11 August 2024 10.49

Happy times at patrington

10 years ago

11 August 2015 20.25

Nice relaxing day , well as relaxing as it can be with my brood

16 August 2024 11.49

Took advantage of feeling good and skipped outta house for 24 hours with Jacob , lovely for a change of scenery 💕

Always a drama when I go away though and this time was Tony’s turn who’s car blew up on m62 🙈🙈 so if anyone knows a decent motor for sale drop me a message 👌

17 August 2024 21.24

Tony been off fishing for day with Samuel , he don’t look impressed with his first catch 😂😂

Kirstin Cullen is with Ann Cullen.

19 August 2024 20.51

Ain’t gonna lie since my ct scan it’s been an absolute head fook , coming up

To year anniversary of being diagnosed with this shitty arse cancer Leiomyosarcoma still can’t say it or spell It without checking Google , the reality of it all has screamed at me this past week , in many senses feel like I’m in bonus time as without accepted the brutal regime of chemo they offered I wasn’t expected to be here now . The treatment is hard , it’s changed me , I’ve had to become a spectator in so many things rather than a competitor , the simplist of things take me twice as long as at times I’ve neither the strength or the energy , when people ask me what’s my life goals , well a week after diagnosis I bought a tin of corned beef , checked date in middle of asda and emotion floored me 04/2027 did that corned beef really have a longer life expectancy than me so my goal became to eat that tin on its expiry date, so yes my goal is to outlive a tin of corned beef 🙈🙈

So I’ve had my moan let’s look at the positives , oncology appointment today and ct results were unexpectedly ready , overall I’m classed as still stable 💪🏻 the necrotic part of the tumour has settled positively and I’m now 45 days with zero pain relief , after bouncing out of the menopause 2 months ago I’ve now gone back into it 😩😩 as if the first time wasn’t torture enough , mentally and physically signed off as fab and continued to get fatter 🙈 I’ve yet to meet anyone who can gain over 2 stone with cancer and chemo 🐷

Gonna make some gentle changes cos I think a lot of my problems at min are because im fat and unfit 🤔 but the changes can come after this cake 👌

Kirstin is with Tony Love.

20 August 2024 19.56

Wheelie bin goes out more in a month than we ever manage In years , but seized the moment tonight , lovely meal at Miah’s Indian Fusion , great to have somewhere good on the doorstep now , diet can start another day 😂😂

21 August 2024 12.19

Another few days pause on

School

Hols for chemo 14, massive screw

You cancer from us , tea trolley duty for Jacob extra biscuits for me 😂😂

21 August 2024 13.49

Face of a kid that doesn’t want to listen to the do’s and don’t of sex after chemo 😂😂 hometime , get ironing pile cracked off and get settled to watch a shit film

22 August 2024 07.21

Sick as a pig 🤢 weather resembles winter 🥶 shit films and online Christmas shopping kinda day suits well

22 August 2024 10.47

Nipped out for bread , randomly bought loads of sheets of kingspan insulation and no bread 😩😩

24 August 2024 21.38

Waited for this moment all day , bedtime . Saturday after chemo is defo my regular shit day. Thankfully managed to get to sherburn air show and for a pub lunch , night world

26 August 2024 07.21

Well that’s been a rough few days , had to hit the painkillers this weekend after 50

Odd days without . Slow n steady day today, final week of school holidays , dreading alarm clock going back on

26 August 2024

Needed a day of normal

Today , something I don’t take for granted now , up to park with dogs early, nice productive few hours down allotment and then trip

Over to batley tesco. Roast pork dinner cooking and chilled night in front of telly

28 Augest 2024 20.46

Normy fooking watch , oh you let her post on but declined mine and I’m advertising same , yes well she’s a friend and you ain’t , that’s not fair why should your friends get priority 😩😩 fook off

29 August 2024 12.27

I actually think

I’ve made the best ever bad decision of my life 🙈🙈 can’t stop

Laughing to myself 😂😂 roll on next week

Kirstin is with Ann Cullen at Butlin Skegness.

30 August 2024 14.38

Final Push of summer hols 💪🏻

Kirstin is with Ann Cullen at The Deck Restaurant At Butlins Skegness.

31 August 2024 09.14

Love the premium

Dining plan, best way to

Start the day with all

You can eat buffet

Kirstin is with Ann Cullen.

31 August 2024 18.49

Knackered after a full On day will defo Sleep tonight , took mum

On the outdoor rapids , you get thrown all over , at one point she says I don’t know what I’m

Laid on and a man’s voice said “me “

Me and Jacob never laughed so much 😂😂😂😂 defo been the highlight

Kirstin is with Ann Cullen.

1 September 2024 08.13

Happy 68 th birthday to my mum

, I know she’s going to have the best day as she’s spending it with her favourite daughter and grandson 💕🙈. Thanks for everything you do for us , have the best day , love always Kirstin xxxxx

3 September 2024 09.51

Literally spent the past year eating myself through this cancer malarkey 🙈 🐷 at diagnosis was 13 stone now over 15 stone 😩 I’m defo one of the few that hasn’t lost weight without trying or lost there appetite with cancer 😂😂starting a diet today , actually seriously debating going back to slimming world as I’ve zero direction when it comes to food and doesn’t just impact me but everyone in the house , some weeks spending £300 between supermarket , takeaways and meals out which is a joke. Couldn’t give 2 shits how heavy my coffin is cos it ain’t me carrying it but I’m

Sure half my problems are down to my current weight , knees kill , back kills , constantly like a slug fat wet and slow , gonna give it a bash to get to 14 stone and see how I feel 💪🏻

4 September 2024 08.26

Well we’ve had a blast this summer holidays , some nice breaks away, days out and days in throw into that 2 chemos I think we’ve done ok 👌 year 8 ready , the times flying by way too fast I need it to slow down abit , have the best day ever Jacob and keep working hard , love always mum Xx

4 September 2024 09.57

Who even celebrates back to school

With an early morning trip in peace to b and q 😩😩 projects to finish and projects to start. Keep busy this winter 💪🏻

5 September 2024 10.54

Thoroughly enjoyed the last year and every dinner date , takeaway and cream bun and not forgetting the all

Inclusive holidays. But I’m

Sure half my ailments and aches are from being fat as fook rather than cancer 🙈🙈 definately don’t want to get down to my nhs healthy wait but to get the 2 stone off ive gained this past year would be good . Let the slimming world journey recommence 💪🏻

6 September 2024 22.29

Ruffled some feathers me thinks 😂😂😂

Kirstin is with Ann Cullen.

7 September 2024 10.08

Well I think I may celebrate this weekend , as close friends and family know at times I’ve struggled with my lack of consistency with care at st James hospital , and you 100% do have to be your own advocate , through a complaint I lodged I’ve actually found out that my scan in March my liver mets showed shrinkage but every scan I’ve had the results they’ve always given me is “ stable “

. In the grand scheme of my diagnosis it doesn’t make much difference but to me I’m majorly pissed that I should of been told , should of known of the minor victory , if I’d of been flagging and not head strong this could of spurred me on .

So here’s to celebrating 6 mths ago I had shrinkage to the liver 💪🏻💪🏻

7 September 2024 16.44

When someone says , long fall from your high horse 😂😂 I’m

on a roll this week

Kirstin is feeling amused with Tony Love.

8 September 2024 13.00

Been a strange old year and so many worries constantly in my head , not worries for me but for those that I leave behind , worry for Tony being sat on his own and no one to peck his head and tell him to p off 🙈

I’ve realised this year you constantly have to find solutions to problems , adapt to change and get the mental peace . Welcome to the madhouse Pablo the parrot 🦜 my lifetime gift to you Tony 😂😂

8 September 2024 13.40

Wish Tony would hurry up and come home 😂😂

8 September 2024 20.44

Someone’s worn themself out on Pablo watch 🦜💕 🐶

9 September 2024 05.30

What a dark miserable morning , winter definately seems to be on its way

Kirstin is eating dinner with Laura Walker Herbert and

9 September 2024 20.44

Lovely catch up with some of the old slimming world crew , lovely flowers thank you ladies and Norma on top form as always with her baking 😋😋💕 we defo won’t leave it so long next time

10 September 2024 15.21

Samuel the bird whisperer

(We know who Pablo has taken to the most now)

11 September 2024 13.17

Stepping into round 15, I’ll be honest after a week of feeling fantastic and really having a spring in my step the thought of chemo today was one of dread . It’s like being told your off to be injected with tonsillitis you just wouldn’t want to go , but I don’t have a choice just gotta crack on with it , take the rough with the smooth , screw you cancer 💪🏻

11 September 2024 16.12

Sat in chemo and all I fancied was beetroot soup , nipped allotment on way back to pick some to get pan of soup on , gets home washes it and my mind suddenly drifts to bovril 😩😩 up to asda Samuel goes and now nursing a cup of bovril and beetroot sacked off , what a boring craving today has been 🙈🙈😂😂

11 September 2024 16.44 (sat in conservatory)

Only sunny spot in the house 🙈🐶😂💕

11 September 2024 19.10

Tonight slimming world I’m an Asian kitchen salt n pepper box 😂😂 1 st weigh in tomoz 🙈🙈

12 September 2024 05.32

Wide awake since 4 gotta love steroids said no one ever

12 September 2024

To say our Samuel’s first thoughts were what the fook you getting a parrot for it’s safe to say he’s absolutely smitten 💕

15 September 2024 14.03

Love gala weekend , always bump into people I’ve not seen for ages , have really appreciated every kind word , hug and chat , chilled out on sofa now , find a shit flick to watch and listen to Pablo growling at the dogs 😂 hard to believe he’s only been here a week , feel like he’s always been with us

Kirstin is with Tony Love.

16 September 2024 12.05

I’ll blame the chemo fog , accidentally clicked book now rather than exit 😂 oh well nice to have something on my countdown

16 September 2024 14.32

Jeeez today feels like it’s been sponsored by mr sheen and domestos , got a right spring clean head on 💪🏻💪🏻

17 September 2024 15.07

Missed my hearing test today as I misheard the time she told me for appointment , ffs Kirstin 😂😂

18 September 2024 20.43

Will never grow tired of watching and listening to pablos antics he’s defo completed our animal family 🐶🦜🐶

19 September 2024 18.44

Might cancel my tv licence cos watching Pablo far more interesting , he’s a right little torment

21 September 2024 12.24

Had a cracking week down here this week and really re found my mojo , let’s hope we get some more good weather so can get right on top

Of it and hopefully have a cracking growing year 2025

Tony Love is with Kirstin.

21 September 2024 15.13

Well Kirstin Cullen finally got what she wanted, a crazy ranting barking parrot

Kirstin is with Ann Cullen and Indiya Rose.

22 September 2024 09.50

When your mum has one shandy too many 😂😂😂 fantastic night to celebrate indiya and Josh’s engagement , a fantastic family she’s entwined herself with , couldn’t of wished for better 💕💕💕

23 September 2024 18.03

Woke this morning felt absolutely shocking , succumbed to some kind of winter cold bug , cancelled my plans in favour of keeping germs to myself and resting , Jacobs bedroom now fully stripped and decorated and nice new bedding out and lots of stuff bagged for charity shop, resting just ain’t for me 😂👌💪🏻

24 September 2024 18.31

Gave in and went the doctors 😩😩 let’s hope antibiotics kick in quick and temp comes down cos I really ain’t fancying a hospital stay bedtime for me soon and hopefully good nights kip will work wonders

25 September 2024 10.48

Wondering should I give Pablo sympathy for the cough he seems to of developed with me 🦜😂

25 September 2024 14.10

As if I wasn’t feeling rough enough , stepped into my flip flops not realising a wasp was in them , 3 stings later fml

26 September 2024 08.06

Wasp stings defo go on my list now of wouldn’t wish on anyone , foot was so painful last night , paracetamol, codeine and an ice lolly in a sock for bed and pain was no better 😩😩 least one blessing , it took me off my feet so meant I could rest

27 September 2024 19.13

Rock n roll Friday night 😂😂

29 September 2024 07.40

Happy fooking Sunday 🙄😩

30 September 2024 13.45

Really ain’t feeling todays oncology , what is usually always my best week in my chemo cycle ended up flattened by infection and on antibiotics , defo still ain’t 100% and bloods today are borderline reflecting my body fighting infection , they gave me the option of proceeding with Wednesdays chemo or not , wish they wouldn’t give me such choices , my mind drifted to the tin of corned beef that I’m determined to outlive for a second and I gave a feeble go on then sign it off , know this round will hit hard and wipe me out but got to pull my big girl pants up 💪🏻💪🏻 oh and for first time ever since starting on this shit show I’ve actually lost weight intentional of course 🙈👌

2 October 2024 12.04

Knew from minute I woke up today wasn’t gonna be easy , took forever to get here and for once was me that was late not them. Chemo started in left hand but it’s gone tits up and I’ve become the newly qualified nurses leaning curve 😩, waiting on doctor now , radio has a funny way of playing right song at right time

It’s the circle of life

And it moves us all

Through despair and hope

Through faith and love

‘Til we find our place

On the path unwinding

In the circle

The circle of life

Round 16 let’s be having you 💪🏻💪🏻

Fuck you cancer , take my body but you’ll not take my mind , we are all

Only guarnteed yesterday, reach out and grab life by the balls

2 October 2024 14.18

Home sweet home , given the dramas and hiccups at chemo, got to watch out for agitation , psychosis , disturbed mental

State and burning , ssaid to doctor now is there any side effects that will scream out from my normal cos that all seems like my standard day 😂😂

2 October 2024 19.50

Hard work this chemo malarkey , proper takes it out of you and leaves you snoring like a fooking pig on sofa 😂😂😂

3 October 2024 13.28

For first time in god knows how long had to ring Jacob In sick to school. He’s had sick days but it’s usually cos we are due at an airport 🙈 god knows what he’s caught but he’s spent most of day in bed

3 October 2024 15.51

Absolute hero’s . Sweat and tears gone into that rescue this past 8 days , we defo are a nation of animal lovers , one happy ending for rose

4 October 2024 14.37

Another sick day today after trip to out of hours yesterday, neither of us do well with cabin fever so steady hour out to get pablo some supplies and dinner in there cafe ,

6 October 2024 14.59

I’m Sure I’ve said it before but never ever ever will I let them tick me off for chemo when bloods are borderline. On antibiotics again but proper getting my arse kicked and smallest of things taking the biggest of effort , slept 11 hours last night but could happily crawl back into bed now.

Kirstin is feeling fed up at St james hospital. Bexley wing.

7 October 2024 02.57

I gave in 🙈🙈 let’s hope these new antibiotics kick in fast

8 October 2024 09.49

Slept the clock round , needed that 💕

8 October 2024 11.59

Problem is with resting it also means spending 🙄🙄 but got to say Amazon prime day deal glitch of the day defo goes to me , some good bargains to

Be had , least Tony back at work

Tomoz ready for parcel man coming

8 October 2024 12.01

Newest chav on the block

8 October 2024 16.41

Didn’t realise crossing sprouts was still such a thing , god knows what part of the 1980’s Tony still trapped in 😂😂

10 October 2024 15.42

Thankful that I have a strong mental resilience , like everyone I have my blips , but a strong focus and refusal to sit back is my personal strategy . Proud to of stood tall and stayed true to myself when I could have crumbled. We are all fooking powerful , remember that 💕💕 everyday in life is precious , everyday we waste on our past is a day we’ve lost in the future , reach out and grab life by the balls

Kirstin was watching a video.

10 October 2024 20.10

Someone please tell me it gets better. Saw all hype on Facebook past 24 hours , honestly feel like I’ve rewound to being 14 sat on sofa with my mum n dad eating a 10 p mix up watching a dead film , 20 mins in

Kirstin is with Ann Cullen.

11 October 2024 12.12

Pizza hot dog and icecream , not bad to say her stipulation of going Costco was need to be home for my dinner and not eating there 😂😂

12 October 2024 19.17

Can’t shake it off so gonna try sleep it off . Night night everyone 💕

13 October 2024 08.56

Slept the clock round , defo needed that , thankfully the stomach upset has gone and now just frigging starving for a change 🙈🙈 walked through lounge this morning and could of sworn Pablo said “What the ell“ , he defo has been the best bad decision of cancer . Love him to bits we all do , well other than joe but secretly I think he’s scared of him

13 October 2024 12.58

Managed a couple hours out and treated myself , new ironing board and hot water bottle , rock n roll 😂😂

13 October 2024 17.29

Can we all please get the violins out for Tony who feels hard done by that he’s hoovered twice in a day 🙈🙈

14 October 2024 09.39

Happy happy Kirstin , woke up pain free first time since chemo 12 days ago. Gonna celebrate with a trip to b and m, no doubt spend £100 on stuff I didn’t know I needed 🙈😩 have a fantastic week everyone 💕

15 October 2024 19.23

Officially that time of the year where I can yell turn the lights off it’s like blackpool illuminations in here

17 October 2024 10.26

Boys get sad too It’s ok not to be ok In a world when we can be anything be kind and compassionate

Kirstin is with Ann Cullen.

18 October 2024 13.58

Past few weeks has fetched up such a mixture of emotions , the final conclusion on my dads death and the closure on the legal case against the nhs , my own health feels to of declined and more days I feel

Like I’m Climbing a mountain but onwards we battle 💪🏻. First time since we scattered my dads ashes have I returned, in many ways I’ve been scared too as within months of scattering him my own battle began , today was not just a visit to my dads final Resting place but what will Ultimately be mine , he couldn’t of picked a colder spot if he tried 😩 we had many a great holiday at primrose valley as kids and enjoyed some lovely ones with my boys too the place will always hold memories for us all 💕. Then onto Bridlington to finally try out naked fish which I see so many fab reviews about , got to say definately not dissapointed and wow the special

And chips what a plateful

😋😋 mooch round Bridlington now , try fit a mr whippy in and homeward bound , thanks for a lovely day mum

Kirstin is with Ann Cullen.

18 October 2024 16.56

Finishing off the day trip with a icecream , been a lovely day , we’ve chatted , laughed , reminisced, spoke of the future and the past , just how a mother daughter should enjoy a time together 💕

20 October 2024 17.36

Phew thank god that weekends over. Been a tough ride since last chemo and hit with various infections and generally felt shite , finally started feeling Good Friday and enjoyed a trip to coast , kitchen stripped and painted yesterday and Joseph’s room painted and cleaned up today , truly hope one day it will click into place for the boys that regardless of how shit I felt or how much of a uphill struggle it was I pushed myself for them , from the moment they was born they’ve always been my biggest motivator , I’ll live in hope though that one day they’ll look up from there phones or games consoles and say mum what can we do to make life easier for you today.

21 October 2024 11.11

It’s the little things that make this hospital

A much more welcoming place , beauty and the beast being beautifully played and echoes around the hospital

💕 thank you to those that give up There time so patients can enjoy it

21 October 2024 13.37

Appointment with professor stark done , round 17 signed off for Wednesday and round 18 booked for 3 weeks time. Ct scan booked for 3 weeks time , he’s of the opinion that the hiccups we’ve had after my last round was probably inflammation in the tumour that was rubbing on my urethra making me little miss pissy pants and is miffed that the emergency admission didn’t sort out a scan , but infection has healed itself . Onwards we battle with a strong mental mindset 💪🏻💪🏻

21 October 2024 18.15

Fishfinger sarnie 😋😋 years ago would be a close to payday cheap tea , price of fishfingers now it’s a luxury tea 🙈

22 October 2024 08.07

Inner strength , something you never realise how strong it is until you need it

22 October 2024 19.18

When your friend turns up

With your favourite cream bun 😋💕 ain’t had one for ages forgot how much I love em , thank you Rachel Handley lovely to have a catch up

23 October 2024 12.17

Round 17 done ✔️ look rough as but that’s from sleeping next to someone who thinks they have to do there best steam train impression through night 🙈🙈😩 let’s hope this round is easier than last one , one more alarm clock and then it’s half term woo hoo , had hoped cleaning fairies would pay a visit this morning but slob monsters came instead 😂 massive screw you cancer as always , none of us can change the hand we are given just got to learn to enjoy the ride 💪🏻

Kirstin is with Tony Love.

23 October 2024 16.45

Wish Jacobs drama teacher who marked him as a pitiful grade 2 on his praising stars could see the dramatic performance he’s just put on for us 😂😂he’s gutted I couldn’t give 2 hoots about drama , hated it myself

Kirstin is with Tony Love.

23 October 2024 17.43

Steroids full blown kicked in , woohoo billy big bollox time , house echoes with the standard tea time vibe of what’s for tea , erm

I ain’t getting up from this sofa fend for your self , I’ve been offered toast , fooking toast man , what kind of lame culinary offering is that , takes me back to sweating and pushing through a 49 hour labour with Joseph then midwife places him in my arms and says right I’ll fetch you some toast 😂

23 October 2024 18.08

I walk through lounge and Pablo pipes up what the hell , he’s defo gonna learn a lot more tonight I’m proper on one 🦜 😂

Kirstin is with Tony Love.

23 October 2024

Taken it out of rhe old buggar making himself toast for tea , needs a grandad nap 😂😂

Kirstin is with Tony Love.

23 October 2024 18.59

Did I mentioned they’d double dosed me on steroids to try counteract last time 😂😂 legal high 🙈🙈 the highs enjoyable for me but brutal for everyone else , the comedown will be horrific all round , take the rough with the smooth , cinderbastardrella , pick on Tony night ,

Kirstin is with Tony Love.

23 October 2024 19.23

For those worrying about the fire engine outside my house , it’s fine no panic and Tony didn’t set the house on fire cooking his toast

24 October 2024 07.22

Morning world , 3rd double dose of steroids taken 🙈🙈 today will be fun , hoping to get to a meeting later for objections to a proposed building development , if I’d still

Raged up I’ll defo have my say with no filter 😂😂

24 October 2024 12.07

Dogs enjoying there extra walk cos there mums a nosey cow 🙈🙈

24 October 2024 14.49

Best bad desicion ever to get a parrot , alongside the dogs the house never feels empty . Could watch and listen to him All Day , he’s like me gets some right little rants on 🦜💕😂

24 October 2024 18.28

Gonna thoroughly enjoy my sausage casserole , hope Tony enjoys his toast 😂

24 October 2024 19.44

No wonder I felt toasty 🙈🙈

25 October 2024 12.34

Woohoo physically feel top banana today , mentally got a steroid crash going on , keeping my Morngy head busy , done all practical

Shite like tip run and Asda dash , wrapped some Xmas presents , been the boring mum and got Jacob cracking off his homework on this inset day so we can enjoy the half term , don’t know what we will

Do but got tank full

Of fuel Ready , defo gonna get to beamish can’t remember ever going , but for today I’ll step into cinderbasterallas shoes and get a head start , have a bless day everyone

Kirstin is at Kirkstall Abbey.

26 October 2024 14.37

Few hours out of house , thankfully looks like we’ve weather on our side this week

Kirstin is with Clare Collinson.

29 October 2024 15.04

Jacob and his pal enjoying Bowling , lazer zone and my fave Pizza Hut buffet , love school holidays 👍🏻

30 October 2024 10.33

Gotta love just eat voucher cock ups , total spend zero 👍🏻🙈

30 October 2024 12.11

Absolutely love our little town , walking past local

Cafe and gem shouts here Kirstin gotta keep your strenght up 💕💕absolutely put a smile on my face and warmed my heart ♥️

1 November 2024 17.02

If only the worries burnt as quickly as the bonfire 🔥

1 November 2024 19.36

Love it when he gets his little rants on. King Pablo 🦜

1 November 2024 20.20

If your gonna post on normy watch bonfire weekend moaning about fireworks fact is your gonna be destroyed , great banter 🔔 🔚

2 November 2024 21.27

To says there’s been loads of bonfires and fireworks today there really isn’t that gorgeous firework smell in the air ,

4 November 2024 07.31

Well that half term past in the blink of an eye , been a blast though and my body definately needed the no alarm for a week. 7 weeks to get through now till Christmas break , my Xmas clearout well under way , love this time of year out with the old ready for in with the new, have a fab week everyone

5 November 2024 15.15

2023 lost my eyelashes to cancer , 2024 lost em to a bonfire 🔥 winning at life 😂😂

Jacob Love is with Kirstin and Tony Love.

6 November 2024 17.05

Loves his banana chips he does (Pablo being fed)

7 November 2024 11.04

Keep hearing songs on radio and think oh I love that and would be so apt to sum me and my life up at my funeral , my playlist is huge now so looks like I’ll be having a rave not a funeral

🙈😂😂😂😂

Kirstin is with Ann Cullen and Indiya Rose.

8 November 2024 14.36

Finally had a week of feeling top banana woohoo , put the week to good use , caught up on errands, caught up on housework but most importantly caught up with family and friends 💕💕 back on the hamster wheel next week

8 November 2024 15.05

£10 for 2 pizzas on Pizza Hut app for collection , order one on the tenner deal and then can get a free large pizza just scroll down there page to apply the discount 👍🏻

9 November 2024 11.55

Pray for Tony 🙏🏻

He’s got a cold , not just any old cold , it’s a man cold , one that leaves them

With a inability to do

F all other than moan 😩😩

Good job god created woman as the stronger sex who carry on regardless 🙈😂😂😂

11 November 2024 11.18 Vist to nursing home to see John)

Side eye from lottie after being retrieved from an old lady’s bed 🙄🙄 John bless him wasn’t up for a visit today , but was nice to chat with other residents and staff , amazing job they all do 💕

Kirstin Cullen is with Ann Cullen at St james hospital. Bexley wing.

11 November 2024 17.48

The day I dread . Scan day , been lucky so far that the chemo has kept me stable and stopped the growth and spread , but I’m well aware at any point things can change , just got to keep living for the moment and keep the mental strenght as that’s what gets me through this shit storm , massive middle finger cancer

Kirstin is with Ann Cullen.

11 November 2024 18.56

Scan now scran 🙈 had to fast since 11 😩🙈😂

12 November 2024 14.39

🎵Pick yourself , dust yourself off and get back in the saddle 🎵

13 November 2024 12.46

Yesterday I let things get to me , I’ve no shame in admitting the tears and the anger came , I needed it , I needed the reset button. My feelings are no doubt normal and rational given the situation but I don’t like it , scan is weighing extremely heavy on me and to be told could be 6 weeks for results is a personal torture .

Grateful for how the radio has the ability to play the right song at the right time , driving to chemo this morning fightsong came on

🎵 This is my fight song

Take back my life song

Prove I’m alright song

My power’s turned on

Starting right now, I’ll be strong

I’ll play my fight song

And I don’t really care if nobody else believes 🎵

Boy it gave me the mindset I needed to skip into round 18 of chemo . As we stand now there’s not a round 19 booked, results of scan will determine do we continue , do we shift path , god knows . Just hope there back quickly as I hate having an unwritten chapter and hate the uncertainty that surrounds my life at the minute. It’s a journey I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy , masssive massive screw you cancer

13 November 2024 15.15

Get comfy on sofa put myself a shit film out and think yes spandangle for a couple hours , Tony comes home falls asleep on sofa snoring like a fooking pig 🐷 brain capacity today won’t do subtitles so will keep throwing dog toys at him , wonder at times who’s having chemo cos he seems to always be the one having nana naps 😂😂 💪🏻

14 November 2024 07.05

Quite pleased Tony’s stretching this man Cold out , means he’s sleeping on the sofa and I get to starfish in peace , had best nights sleep Last night and ready to face the day with a smile and a spring in my step , have a fab day everyone 💪🏻

15 November 2024 08.39

Today we will appreciate the view not the walk , sofa surfing and Netflix kinda day

Kirstin is with Nicola Jayne.

15 November 2024 17.01

Today’s been rough , steroids crash , words get gumbled and zero patience , diamond at my door earlier dropping off some gorgeous homemade lasagne for us all to enjoy , not only does it taste fantastic but takes pressure off me cooking and don’t have to Accept Tony’s offer of toast 😩🙈 your a good egg Nicola , who’d of thought one runaway dog all Those years ago would of created such a beautiful Funny friendship , love you 💕💕

17 November 2024 09.55

Where as been fab to star fish as Tony spent past week sleeping on sofa , we’ve now got a parrot that thinks it’s hilarious to snore 😩😩 😂

18 November 2024 07.30

Time for folk to go

Panic buy a weeks worth of shopping cos there maybe a dusting of snow

18 November 2024 18.39

With pleasure , be war n peace mind and no direct hit at the wonderful nurses who continuously go above there pay grade due to a massively stretched nhs budget

18 November 2024 19.19

Do you want to build a snowman ⛄️

20 November 2024 09.54

Pleased I admitted defeat yesterday and went into hospital , defo been a rough ride this past week , hate hate hate when things happen that I’m

Not in control

Off , infection markers way above what they should be, pain been off the scale, maxing out on pain killers has then led to other problems . Thankfully today is a fresh day , on right medication for necrosis and hoping to ride the tide of this hiccup 💕

20 November 2024 13.35

Feel like a tube of Pringles 😩😩😩

21 November 2024 07.02

Absolutely Baltic this morning , defo time to ditch the crocs 🥶 quick and short walk for dogs this morning ,

Kirstin is with Alison Parratt.

22 November 2024 19.22

Perfect end to a bonkers week , few more days of antibiotics but thankfully appetite well and truly back 😋😋 good food , good company and kids behaved bonus 💕

23 November 2024 13.20 (I spilled Pablos food everywhere)

When people say does parrot make a mess , no but this knob does when he drops container of food 😩😂😂

25 November 2024 06.04

Monday morning and up before the alarm . Let’s hope it’s a good sign it’s gonna be an awesome week 👍🏻💪🏻

25 November 2024 12.40

Well seems I’m far behind everyone else so decided to make an effort and put the tree up with fairy on top 🙈😂

27 November 2024 06.53

This time last year I asked Jacob’s school fresston could they refer him to somewhere that could support him with the complexity of our situation , I needed to know that he had someone he could speak to about his feelings and could support him in the hard times to come . Sadly he didn’t meet criteria for a lot because I was still alive , WASP Wakefield went above and beyond in stepping in tweaking what they offer and an absolute diamond of a guy did some 1-1 sessions with

Jacob , they have a time frame there allowed but again tweaked it , Craig would ring me and you know what we’d laugh we’d joke he’s absolutely crackers and we get on like a house on fire . Yesterday he rung me to see how I was and that I’m

The most amazing parent he’s ever had the pleasure of working with and I’ve captured his heart and humour . He’s yet again gone above and beyond , all I’ve ever asked of people on this shitty arsed journey is cheer me on , you all give me the strenght to carry on when I feel

The next step

Is impossible , yesterday Craig overwhelmed me , they’ve done so much without realising , they thought outside the box and have offered us something truly magical to enjoy with Jacob and I couldn’t be more grateful for what they’ve done without being asked , 10 sleeps to go 💕💕

Kirstin is listening to Dire Straits.

27 November 2024

On fire this morning , bedrooms scrubbed and cleaned , washing and ironing done , even made fancy patterns in toilet hinch eat your heart out 😂defo working up appetite for a lunch date with my forever partner in crime Joanne Louisa knocking up 35 years of friendship , I needed this week of feeling good so much 💪🏻💪🏻

Kirstin is with Joanne Louisa at Eastfield Arms.

27 November 2024 14.44

That defo hit the spot and tickled the dead taste buds , great company , fab food will defo go back 💕💪🏻

Kirstin is feeling amused.

27 November 2024 20.24

Tony put me in a bad mood so I ordered a ninja slushie, he’ll

Now be in a worser mood but it’s fine I’ll make him a slushie to cool

Him Down😂😂 a woman’s mind is a beautiful thing 🖕🏻

28 November 2024 13.40

When check out girl in sainsburys says oh how lovely of you to pack your dads shopping 😂 perhaps this cancer bollox has aged Tony more than me 🙈😂😂 cool down Tony have a slushie

28 November 2024 17.59

Officially that time of year where I’m constantly saying “ put that back it’s for Christmas “ 😂

29 November 2024 05.04

Happy 23 rd birthday Samuel ,

The eldest son who was the one to give me title of mum , taught me all about unconditional love , the years have slipped by way too quickly hope you have the best day and weekend celebrating ,

Dad happy 73 th birthday in heaven , still

Miss you as much today as I do everyday , till we meet again 💕💕

Tony Love is with Kirstin Cullen.

29 November 2024 13.28

I knew she was loosing it but you only find these things out on your day off. #no wonder no house work gets done lol. Love you crazy Kirstin

29 November 2024 17.22

Assisted dying , been far too invested invested into this , think in one sense it’s great to be able to spare yourself and your loved ones the undignified and painfull end with terminal illness, good that you can pick your day to make sure your loved ones are there but can imagine scenario in this house, me saying will just get washing up done , tony saying before you go have you seen my car keys , joe asking have I bought his fave pizza, Samuel saying I’m nipping out won’t be long and Jacob asking where his pe kit is and my mum moaning to hang on while she straightens all my curtains up and turns lights off 🙈

29 November 2024 20.25

Will always be known as my best bad decision 🦜

30 November 2024 09.21

Gorgeous bunch of flowers delivered this morning , thank you so much Jan Morris years slip by but friendship and laughter remains , lovely catch up other day

Kirstin is with Samuel Love and 5 others at The Railway Featherstone.

30 November 2024 19.52

Last min plans are the best . Any volunteers to put my mum To bed 🙈🙈 she’s had her first experience of shots

1 December 2024 11.05

Bravo 👌 pushed myself to the brink this year not for me for those I love 💕💕 I can genuinely say couldn’t give 2 shits what’s under the tree I’m genuinely grateful to of made it through to a bonus Christmas and will be around the tree .

1 December 2024 20.19

Foooood 👌

2 December 2024 06.44

Why hello Monday , have a blessed week everyone 💕

Kirstin is with Ann Cullen and Tony Love.

2 December 2024 18.29

3 weeks after my ct scan finally got the results today. Today was confirmation of what my body already knew , progression of disease , feel very blessed that I’ve comfortably managed 18 rounds and in many was enjoyed 14 mths of care free time , Leiomyosarcoma maybe taking my body but my mindset will

Always be as strong as ever .

What now , well we move to plan b , start a new chemotherapy which for many has been having great results , means I’ll be having to have a port inserted and the chemo will be an over night job 😩, it’s stepping into the unknown as to

What side effects will

Affect me 🧑🏻‍🦲🧑🏻‍🦲. But I’ll just deal with whatever shite gets thrown at me and carry on with my goal

Of outliving the tin of corned beef 💪🏻💪🏻

2 December 2024 19.16

Just realised 🙈 new chemo day is Tuesday , my fave Chinese is open then , always grinded my gears that it was closed Wednesdays 😂😂 always a silver lining

3 December 2024 10.53

Destroying my inner peace with a trip to Meadowhell With Tony 😩😩😩

3 December 2024 16.14

10 outta 10 to tui , rang up today to see what options were for a holiday we had booked for February , full refund with zero amendment fees , saved having to use my travel insurance , operation beach body cancelled , gonna thoroughly enjoy the clotted cream rice pudding later 💪🏻

4 December 2024 09.40

Right folks honest opinions please , new chemo is a 24 hour pump I’m left hooked up too , they’ve said I have to stay overnight , but I won’t be on a ward I’ll either be in the hotel located within st James hospital or if that’s full at a city centre hotel paid for by hospital . There reasoning being I need to be within 30 minutes of the hospital in case the pump fails , my sat nav shows 26 minutes from home unless it’s rush hour or accident. Thought of being isolated in a hotel room raged up on steroids with only myself to argue with ain’t sitting well with me , neither is a whole new heap of side effects and no one to say oh you ain’t looking good .

6 December 2024 07.54

Honestly he’d lose his balls if they wasn’t in a sack 🙈🙈

Kirstin is at St. James’s Hospital, Chancellor Wing.

6 December 2024 13.47

Keeping everything crossed that my heart is as strong as my mindset so they can tick all the boxes and give the go ahead for the next plan 💪🏻

Jacob Love is with Kirstin and Tony Love.

6 December 2024 19.51

Pablo landing on the snore machine’s shoulder will never not be funny poor man had to put his body in the cage to get him back on it

Kirstin is with Joseph Love.

7 December 2024 06.49

Happy 19 th birthday Joseph. We’ve had some challenges over the years but wouldn’t change a thing about you , this past year I’ve seen a side to you that I’m immensely proud of , keep reaching for the moon and stars , love you always mum

💕

7 December 2024 11.58

Lost Tony in white rose 🙈 faces he’s been pulling this morning guarantee I won’t be trying to find him

😂😂 might add extra element to game of hide n seek and turn my phone off

Kirstin was watching a video.

7 December 2024 15.08

Hot water bottle , blanket and series to binge ., happy Saturday

7 December 2024 20.00

Least dogs just stare at you when your eating , Pablo on other hand will say hello continuously till you give in

Kirstin is feeling grateful with Millie Parratt and 2 others

8 December 2024 14.57

Absolutely fantastic trip out today for the polar express. Whether you believe or not there something very magical about this time of year. We all enjoyed every minute of it and I can’t thank wasp Wakefield enough for surprising us with it , its most definately my December highlight 💕

8 December 2024 16.10

Of course I made sure we stopped on way there just for shits n giggles with tony in his pjs and Rudolph slippers 😂😂 of course I kept thinking of things I needed from McDonald’s counter 🙈😂😂

9 December 2024 06.38

Why hello Monday you came round quick , busy few days planned before before the chaos of hospital appointments start , have a blessed week everyone 💕

Kirstin is with Alison Parratt.

9 December 2024 12.30

Starting the week the right way , spooooons and shopping 💪🏻

Nicola Jayne is feeling amused.

10 December 2024 12.42

Kirstin rings me! Hey up, me, hey up!

Kirsten, ive just put ya card on ya doorstep. Me carries on talking!

Kirsten, have you got it yet?

Me, no I’ll get it now! It’s not bloody snowman kitchen roll is it?

🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

⛄️ 🐶 ⛄️🐶⛄️🐶⛄️

YOU NOB! 🤣

Cheered me right up did that!

Thank you love 🥰

Kirstin is at St james hospital. Bexley wing.

11 December 2024 12.44

7 days of craziness begins now , pre op assesment now as we prepare to take on plan b

12 December 2024

💪🏻

13 December 2024 09.31

Errands run , supermarket shop done. Wondering is it too early to declare pyjama o clock 🤦‍♀️

13 December 2024 21.27

Pablo doing exactly what I hoped he’d do Fetching smiles and laughter to the house 🦜💕

14 December 2024 09.06

One job Tony had just one bloody job , all I’ll say is today I’ll be on constant repeat of singing 🎶 happy birthday to Christmas 🎶 , today Tony will do a rerun of Christmas card shopping taking extra care that they don’t all say happy birthday 🙈😂 🔔 🔚

14 December 2024 11.02

Battles going on in my head this morning which I didn’t want to have , need to make the most of this weekend as so much could change next week but equally would be happy to hide under duvet all weekend

Kirstin is at St james hospital. Bexley wing.

16 December 2024 08.46

Starving , irritable and tired , hope I’m not bottom of theatre list 😩😩

Tony Love is with Kirstin.

16 December 2024 10.59

With Kirstin Cullen waiting for the start of round 2. The silent and not so silent battles she has fought and fell, but chosen to stand up again. I’ve heard it’s not how hard you fight, but how hard life hits you and you get back up that counts. Kirstin continues to amaze me with her resilience and strength while offering others in same position the hand to also fight. I’ve grown so much and built a life with Kirstin, to see her fight everyday to sometimes do the simplest things then bounce back the next is the most remarkable thing I’ve seen. I don’t do Facebook and don’t really post things like this, but today sat in the waiting room while she is doing all she can to stay, I just want to say how much I love her. The one who never stays down and shows us all what fighting really means.

16 December 2024 12.02

Job done ✔️ home now , thanks everyone , expected to be sore later , nurse in recovery room

Sounded exactly like Tony “

You want some toast “ 😂

16 December 2024 17.28

Most people have port on right side . I choose to have it on my left so i could continue sleeping on my right with my back to tony 🙈 think I’ve instant karma as now can’t lift my left hand to my mouth 😂😂 this is gonna be fun

Jacob Love is with Kirstin and Tony.

16 December 2024 19.36

Went a bit off track there Pablo!

Kirstin is with Laura Walker and 2 others

16 December 2024 21.02

Lovely catch up with some of the old slimming world crew , wasn’t gonna be anything today that stood in the way of our Christmas catch up 😋😋 thanks ladies really enjoyed it

Kirstin is with Tony Love.

17 December 2024 15.39

Back on the hamster wheel for round 1 of new chemo , round 19 in total 😩 as much as wasn’t nice to find out the cancer has progressed it’s been nice to have a bonus couple weeks off chemo felt good other than tired and just enjoyed the time. All hooked up now , 24 hour pump , I’ve cooperated and agreed to stay in the hotel , had a nice lunch with Tony in canteen and now kicking back and enjoying the peace , role reversal today I’m chilling in hotel and he’s now home hopefully playing Cinderella , thanks everyone for your continued support and well wishes it really does mean a lot on this fight 💪🏻👌 as always the middle finger to cancer

17 December 2024 19.18

We all need that one person in our life that will lead us into mischief and totally understand every part of the journey , good old burty , partner in crime since 1987 , stuck to my part of bargain with ongologist that I’d check inn to the hotel and sleep here while connected to the chemo pump , I didn’t mention the intention of Christmas market in Leeds 😂😂 full belly from spoons and churros for desert , Joanne you can take the rap from my mum 😂😂 life’s to short to rest and hang round watching telly , you live every day you die once 💪🏻💪🏻 always glass half full 💕

17 December 2024 22.19

Watching night agent and the time ticking down on the suicide bomber whilst watching the timer on my pump probably wasn’t tonight’s smart move 🙈 gonna have to beg to get it disconnected tomoz before it reaches zero 😂😂 these steroids are giving me visions of all sorts happening 😩

18 December 2024 09.40

Can’t buy fruit in this side of hospital but can have fried bread on a breakfast 😋😋 nhs proudly supporting the obesity crisis 😂😂

18 December 2024 14.38

Home sweet home , oncologist this morning , well done Kirstin on staying in the 24 hours how did you find it , erm

Went to Leeds Xmas markets last night , then sat up talking in reception till late to a lady I met in June when I stayed in, made my night to bump into her yest , paced the hospital grounds at 3 am this morning being sick as a pig and raged up on steroids , went back To hotel room At 5 am . Ok Kirstin I think next round you may be safer at home 😂😂 win win 💪🏻💪 But for now for me the only c word that needs my head space is Christmas , been a funny old year but one I hope to repeat next year , from My house to yours I hope you all Have the best Christmas , what’s under the tree is insignificant it’s definately who’s round it , make the most of your time with your loved ones as we don’t get a second chance , live life with no regrets , thank you to everyone that’s shown such great love and support to me and my family it means the world , my aim For next year is to get through it , to keep the mental

Resilience, the humour , the glass half full but most of all

To outlive the corned beef 💪🏻🎅 🎄

Kirstin is with Nicola Jayne.

18 December 2024 16.03

This woman, love her to bits , best card I’ve ever received , would say this would be Tony’s position tonight but he slept through his alarms this morning and got an extra hour 😂 1 job he had get Jacob up for school and organised, defo a knob today now steroids in full swing

Kirstin is with Tony Love.

18 December 2024 17.47 (I brought powdered milk)

What the fook is this shite , Tony stock us up on milk , came home to this 1960’s throwback 😂😂

18 December 2024 20.10

🎶 and they call it parrot love 🎶

Will always be my best bad decision 🦜😂🙈

18 December 2024 21.28

Wish my mouth was as tired as my eyes . Gonna be a long bloody night

19 December 2024 05.20

Sleeps over rated anyway

Kirstin is with Ann Cullen.

19 December 2024 12.14

Todays just eat bargains, code groceryxmas for £10 off £20 spend. One stop got loads of Christmas bits half price. Change outta £20 for this lot , sent to mothers cos still ain’t put this mornings Morrisons shop away 😂😂 I’ll get it back tomoz minus the handling fee chocolate tax

19 December 2024 15.24

Dear Amazon , had enough deliveries for today 😂😂 gotta love a sleepless night

Kirstin is with Tony Love.

19 December 2024 18.16

Just putting it out there , me saying we need a new microwave ain’t me saying get me one for Christmas 😂😂

20 December 2024 06.53

Woohoo see you next year alarm clock ,

20 December 2024 07.37 (the wheelie bins were on the street in a line but the big house numbers on them were not in order)

When you wanna go destroy someone’s ocd 🙈🙈

Kirstin is with Tony Love.

20 December 2024 09.11

Trying to leave a proffesional well spoken message on someone’s answer machine and Pablo pipes up in back ground “ what the hell “ then laughs so loud he falls off perch 😂😂

20 December 2024 21.51

Go on then 😋😋

21 December 2024 09.27

Saying of the day “ pouring from an empty cup “ get done what needs doing then sofa surf , have a great weekend everyone

Kirstin is with Samuel Love and 3 others

21 December 2024 15.35

Absolutely loving our new 2024 angel on the tree

21 December 2024 17.30

Christmas picky teas , can’t beat em

😋😋

21 December 2024 17.51

Pets defo make house a home ,

22 December 2024 01.11

Eeeek fell asleep at half 6 and just woke up , gonna be a long arse day. Morning world

22 December 2024 12.14

What do you feel

You need to buy at Christmas that you don’t buy through the year , for me it’s mini cheddars and part baked bread

Kirstin is with Tony Love.

22 December 2024

sent Tony chemist for some anbesol for my mouth sores that have appeared 😂😂

I know I chat shit but this takes the piss 😂😂

Pile cream anyone 🙈🙈

23 December 2024 08.29

Ain’t gonna let anyone piss on my parade today , woke up feeling great for first time in a week , fat club done , pork pie run done , car fueled up , Asda parcels collected , now to have lots of coffee steadily clean house and enjoy the day , have a great one everyone

Kirstin is Ann Cullen.

23 December 2024 15.21

Dinner out with mine and Tony’s mum , nice of my sister to call in for a quick drink

Kirstin is with Tony Love.

23 December 2024 19.24

If I was to guess on these presents Tony’s wrapped for me under tree I’d say fish n chips twice and a scallop butty 😂😂 gotta love a man’s wrapping ability 🙈😩😂

Kirstin shared a memory.

24 December 2024 06.17

Miss Tony’s Aldi rages . Ain’t taken him there for months 😂😂

24 December 2023 13.14

Even £120 of meat for £20 couldn’t put a smile on his face in aldi 😂😂😂

Kirstin is with Joseph Love and Tony Love.

24 December 2024 21.45

First time having Pablo out with joe around , I can’t stop laughing 🙈🙈😂😂

25 December 2024 08.11

I don’t do fancy matching wrapping paper or fancy tags but what I have done is bought every present with love and determination to be here to see them

All Unwrapped today , merry Christmas to you all , hope everyone’s day is blessed 💕

Kirstin is with Tony Love.

25 December 2024 08.16

Tonys ready 😂😂 just need boys to wake up

Kirstin is with Joseph Love and Tony Love.

25 December 2024 09.57

Same pose , same spot , same Joseph 🙈😂 somethings at Christmas are just predictable

Tony Love is with Kirstin.

25 December 2024 10.44

Merry Christmas everyone, hope you all got what you wanted this year. I’ve had some amazing gifts but just confused by my celebrations. I thought I would be seeing some mars and maybe a couple of maltesers but oh no. It’s a nutty overload….

Kirstin is with Tony Love.

25 December 2024 10.52

Thanks for my new chopping boards says no fooking wife ever 😂😂😂😂

25 December 2024 11.57

Every year there’s a gift that becomes the absolute favourite and gives you top mum points , despite the thousands spent this years top present for them all

The fiver Greggs gift card in there stockings 😂 🎶 I built this Christmas on sausage rolls 🎶

Kirstin is with Tony Love.

25 December 2024 13.43 (Kirstin had brought a number of celebrations and decided to put a tub together using all the ones I dont like LOL)

😂😂 Tony took the disaapointment of his celebrations tub well , made him appreciate his aldi chocolate box more 🙈😂😩 funny fooker me don’t half make myself chuckle , Tony let us all Know what Mars say to your email Of complaint and how they destroyed your Xmas

Kirstin is with Samuel Love and 3 others

25 December 2024 16.35

Christmas day 2024 , wanted to get some nice pictures 😂 stepped away from

Tradition as we do every year And this year tried Indian for first time at Miah’s Indian Fusion ; thank you mum

For our gorgeous meals. Don’t think ill even manage any porkie 🙈

25 December 2024 18.30

Lads been doing awesome training Pablo when I go bed early , won’t be long and Samuel be moving Benidorm with Pablo

Charging fiver a go to hold him

For a photo 😂

26 December 2024 12.56

One thing I’ve missed this last 15 mths is having a way to

Create the mental Peace that I used to get from

Swimming and cycling , I’ve struggled massively this Christmas with battles in my head and I don’t mind admitting it , it’s ok not to be ok . Feel The outlets I used to

Use had gone and nothing else compares. Well today is day 1 of adapting to recreate what I need , I didn’t get far , felt like my tumour was on A cheese grater but I feel acheivement , I’ll celebrate that I dusted the bike off , I didn’t fall Off it , I got out , tommorrow I’ll try a little bit further . I’ll set my own limits and goals 💪🏻💪🏻 my body may be riddled with cancer but my mind is clear as day of what i need to do . Have a fab day everyone 💕

Kirstin is with Ann Cullen.

26 December 2024 14.56

Is it even boxing day if you aren’t out playing knock a door turkey at your mums 🦃 🙈 done it for years never buy one for Xmas always aim to get some cheapies 😂 sainsburys for pennies just make sure you scan your nectar card or you don’t get any of the discounts , will

Prob have a spare fresh crown once I’ve sorted my freezer

27 December 2024 12.10

Lovely to see a picture of John on nursing home Facebook page , enjoying his Christmas dinner with the lovely Julie 💕 the past year really hasn’t been kind to him health wise and he’s rapidly deteriorating, I pray for peace for him 🙏🏻

Kirstin is with Nicola Jayne.

27 December 2024 14.06

When your mate comes for a coffee 😂🦜😂🙈

Kirstin is with Tony Love.

27 December 2024 17.53

This is what happens when you buy your wife a chopping board for Christmas she needs some new knifes to go with it 😂😂 might send him

Asda to get some tiger bread to test it all out 🙈🙈

28 December 2024 11.03

Well Tony’s started a snowball of events with the bloody chopping boards. Ninja pans are they worth investment . Got scovile ones at minute and they’ve lost there colour on bottom

28 December 2024 15.58

Applies to everyone of us , in many ways I’m blessed I’ve been given the wake up call , so many of us take for granted that life is eternal , for everyone of us we are only guaranteed yesterday 👌 reach out and grab life by the balls

28 December 2024 18.46

Come outta house for a bit for some peace , ended up

Involved in a police t pack , god my life’s so random

29 December 2024 08.46

Hit the point of Christmas I don’t even know what day of the week it is.

Feel like I need to do something today , hit the point of the chemo cycle where Immune system is totally wiped out and need to be careful for a few days , if it warms up a bit later might get some time down allotment been weeks since I’ve been

29 December 2024 14.00

Dug a little , talked alot , needed that few hours down allotment 💪🏻

Kirstin is with Tony Love.

30 December 2024 19.44

I’m defo the give that keeps on giving this Christmas 😂😂😂

31 December 2024 09.30

2024 wow what a bloody year , I’ve seen the strongest side of me but also met with the weakest , a year of growth and lessons I didn’t ask for , but I’m still here , still breathing still fighting to move forward . One thing I’ve really learnt is time is precious , we all have a clock ticking away and have no guarantees on how many days we have left, cherish every day . My vision has changed I see the world and the people in it through different eyes , there’s some who won’t be entering 2025 with me , but I’ve an amazing circle still who will continue to spur me on through the hardest darkest days . What’s my New Year’s resolution, I don’t have one , why change now I’m happy with the foul mouthed , sarcastic, stubborn , argumentative , strong willed cow I am , and to be honest it’s probably only through my flaws that I’m still standing today , 2025 goals are purely to see every day of 25 and get one step closer to outliving the corned beef.

My favourite picture of 2024, my most random impulse buy to date , the happiness and laughter he’s fetched is unreal , the one that will carry on speaking my voice and sayings long after I’m gone 💕

Have a fantastic new year everyone , I wish you all peace , love and happiness 💕

Kirstin is with Tony Love.

31 December 2024 16.40

Tonys “ now what “ 😂😂😂

Kirstin is with Tony Love.

31 December 2024 17.32 (My new nickname)

You know it’s serious work

For professor prick when tongue comes out